u/supremecatto

Was curious to see if anybody actually made it to old age and admitted it before dying.

Yes I've seen the movie I saw the TV glow and I know theres no such thing as a happy repressor. I feel so depressed though and I can't imagine doing this for decades for the rest of my life.

I also know about the famous John 50 case but it seems like at least John 50 had other good things in their life considering the original subject was married and had a family. And them being able to last so long into an older age.

I just don't want to deal with the stigma of being trans and having my family hate me. Seems like a really bad option. Especially since when im kind of lonely.

I also thought about dying but I am afraid to fail and end up disabled.

I've seen a lot of cases where good looking trans people who passed ended up taking their own lives. I know us reppers are miserable, but I'm starting to question if transitioning actually does provide happiness.

I swear I am not transgender i just want to have really nice hair. I will pee in the men's bathroom the rest of my life i promise and i will tell everyone I AM A MAN

I don't even hang around in any trans specific communities, I make friends who i think are cis and suddenly they end up trooning out. Like even random people who I met years ago and never spoke to again, ive seen them troon out. I wish I was kidding. I keep running into troons EVERYWHERE and it triggers my dysphoria so bad.

I mean it is not like I would ever admit being closet trans to anybody. Hold strong my friends.✊️ We can go our whole lives without breaking.