u/tangerine_overlord2

This might be dysfunctional but i think i just dont like being in a relationship. Even if i do like the person themself i feel irritated at the general demands of a romantic relationship. The amount of time, energy, and money that goes into it is so draining. Idk im just not built for it. There is so many other things i need to spend my resources on. Like personal pursuits/goals and my general well being. I know that sounds terribly selfish but its just how i feel

I wish i could be a ‘sometimes’ girlfriend. Like ill be your girlfriend but we just dont bother with each other everyday. Im beginning to consider breaking up with my girlfriend because i am just so! drained! I have nothing left to give. It fucking sucks because i actually do love her and she is a great partner. I just need to step away now and then to focus on myself as an individual and i feel like im not allowed to.

Do you INTP ladies feel the same? Any advice?

This question is not aimed at people on the asexual spectrum just fyi

Talking to my friend yesterday and she said that i am so intellectual that i cant see common sense. That i am on a wavelength above common sense lol.

I just thought it was funny and perhaps fellow INTPs can relate.

Just wanted to say sorry to everyone who has had their life derailed by shit medication. Whether that be lack of efficacy, terrible side effects, or having to just go unmedicated. I see you, and i am you.

I dont know how exactly we will get out of this, but i dont believe it will last forever. We will get our life back.

The very slight stimulating effect that i get from them is seriously starting to seem like its not worth feeling like crap all the time.

I mean i feel like this stuff is slowly killing me. My body just feels uncomfortable to be in. Between the lethargy, the weight gain, muscle tightness, constipation and bloating, agitation, and general mental fried-ness, like why even bother anymore.

Im lucky enough that my ADHD isnt debilitatingly severe so i can probably mostly get by without meds if i make some adjustments to my lifestyle. I know not everyone can really live like that.

The most unfortunate part of this is that these new meds actually feel habit forming while the old ones didnt! Back in the before times, there were days that i forgot to take my meds or just didnt want to for whatever reason. Now if i dont take them on a certain day its like a gnawing craving and weird tiredness. Wtf is this poison

I just discovered this sub and im so astounded!!! For at least a few years now i figured that i must have developed a tolerance to my medication.

I distinctly remember when i first started taking adderall that i felt genuinely capable for the first time in my life. My work still took forever, but at least i had the energy to see it through to the end! Now its like i have to formulate the exact right setting for myself to even get a workflow going, and its still a toss up if ill actually be able to get anything done.

Sometimes i almost feel like going med free would be better because, even though my overall attention would be scattered, there wouldn’t as much of a “time window” from the meds effectiveness.

Half of the time i take my meds these days i get this brain fog or tiredness in the first half of the day.

Now here i am finding out that everyone else is gaining weight from their meds??? Wtf. I really thought that i just “overcame” the appetite loss side effect. Ive gained 20 lbs over the last few years and it is so difficult to lose it.

Back in the day i literally had to force myself to eat! I could only eat certain foods too because i just couldn’t swallow or something… idk im sure you guys remember the feeling.

Even more irritating is this new craps effect on my sleep. I used to be able to take my meds anytime up to 5pm (if i was studying) and still eventually get settled in bed. Now if i dont take my meds early enough, i will literally be awake until the wee hours of the morning. It makes no sense.