the first photo is to demonstrate the white stuff on another nail but the main concern is my the right side of the pinky nail is curved so much it gets stuck on things and is uncomfortable.
How can I add more tubes for my hamsters to pee in? it’s not difficult enough to clean and the smell of pee isn’t pungent enough for my liking.
Hi, this is my first time on this subreddit and am not sure if this is the right flair to use so sorry about that.
I started college in 2022 yet had to take leave so many times to prevent my GPA from dropping below the threshold which would get me kicked out. the academic department there advised it. I was there for three years but only have enough credits to be a sophomore.
I had issues attending classes due to mental health issues I’ve suffered from since I was little as well as a physical condition that was undiagnosed. Where I was in school 6 absences makes you fail immediately and nothing is an excused absence unless it is a religious holiday or maybe a funeral if the professor is nice. I missed more than 6 classes in a couple of coursesI took but my advisor who taught a lot of my courses was understanding and excused absences of mine yet I still couldn’t finish out half of the semesters I took or else I would fail out. I was asked to leave the college in the winter of 2025 because my GPA had fallen below their threshold.
A lot of my friends are graduating right now and I can’t stop telling myself how I could be there right now if I had just gone to class even though logically I know it isn’t that simple.
to provide some context to those feelings I have struggled with some weird involuntary toe and finger spasms that got a lot worse starting in the fall right before I was asked to leave. The spasms got so frequent and painful my primary doctor put me on the medication Gabapentin since I was waking up in pain and couldn’t walk without immense pain and discomfort.
(btw I know how lucky I am that I was able to get this care) When I returned home I went to a hand doctor and a podiatrist who both said I needed to see a neurologist. Nobody really knew what it was and of course being afab and having a history of mental illnesses I wasn’t taken seriously and two neurologists told me it was in my head and I just needed to exercise more or get more therapy or drink more water.
I am barely functioning and still have to take the highest dosage of Gabapentin which is an anticonvulsant that has the effect of calming nerves and involuntary spasms. The medicine has a side effect of drowsiness which means I can’t stay awake consistently during the day. I was only recently able to see a doctor who took me seriously and basically diagnosed me with a disorder which is barely studied and very rare which is why I’m not naming it to stay anonymous. Researchers don’t have any idea what causes it or anything to treat it besides Gabapentin or botox injections to hopefully mitigate the involuntary spasms but the studies of the condition conclude that the majority of patients do not see lasting improvements or even improvements at all.
I know that this has prevented me from going back to college and continue my studies but seeing all of the people I know especially those who are younger than me graduating college makes me feel like such a failure and taking a huge toll on my life. This disorder has already taken so many things from me like hobbies that I need my hands for and I can’t walk more than 10 blocks. I can’t get a job and feel like such a burden to my mom who I live with. It’s so unfair I should be the one up there on the stage right now I worked super hard for it and every day I am stuck like this the longer it will take me to finish my education.
I feel so worthless without a degree or a job just sitting around all day. I still convince myself that I’m somehow making my symptoms worse and that most of it is in my head even though it’s not possible to fake the involuntary spasms as my doctors have said. I just can’t stop thinking about how my life could be if I just toughed it out. I don’t know why I’m posting this or what I’m asking for here but I needed to get it out. Thanks.