I'm having an identity crisis and I need help. Insight much appreciated
I don't know what to do. Heavily questioning
For background information, in 7th grade I identified as a therian, then sometime in 8th grade I had some mental health issues and dropped the therian identity, but now almost two years later I've been discovering my identity more and now I'm questioning if I really am a therian after all.
I still experience what I only can name as phantom shifts, I feel this weight-like tingling in places, such as my shoulders and spine where fur would be, on my head where my ears would be, a canine snout around my nose/mouth, and my tailbone, where my tail would be,and my teeth which feel like they should be shaped more ..sharp I guess? and just a few days ago I kept having what might've been a mental shift? I'm not sure, I had must stronger urges to do quads (which I already do), but I also wanted to move my stuff on my bed around to make a comfortable nest, similar to what my dog does, and to bite and shake my pillow
Not to mention when I get my (phantom shifts?) I get very unsettled by the fact that I feel these things, they should be there, and it makes me upset when they aren't,but then when I put on my canine mask (mask maker) and/or tail a friend gave me, it feels more me in a sense and it relieves some of that unsettled feeling.
I'm not sure if this is all in my head or if I'm a therian or some other alterhuman label, but I figured this might be a good place to start figuring that out.
Last night I felt deeply uncomfortable with myself. Quadrobics and wearing my mask and feeling the canine snout, which usually helps, only helped a little, I couldn't bring myself to do anything that involved looking at my very human hands, I felt like I was going crazy, the tingling feeling I mentioned above was way more intense than usual, and the entire experience just caused me a lot of anxiety overall