u/the-mickel

Cause then we’ll all sing one more song, then it’s so long. Alternatively, the entire Columbus show could just be Bounce Man for 3 hrs.

I.e. How would a sneeze affect a human’s speed and therefore trajectory in orbit. Assuming the average human can survive in space without a spacesuit of course. Friend asked me the question.

Hi there. For some (probably unnecessary) context, I was lucky enough to get really good at suppression over Covid. I never really cared about tics before then. Once I came back to in-person school and activities, though, I felt like I absolutely had to suppress.

Years later, I still suppress like 90% of my tics and it’s as exhausting as the tics would be, and it can overwhelm me and make me panic sometimes (like in a recent incident in a storm shelter during a tornado).

But the thing is that it’s not just that I don’t want people to see my tics (though that’s true too), it’s that I literally can’t let them out. I have to suppress until the premonitory urge builds to a certain point. It’s like suppression itself has become a tic somehow, and it gives me the feeling like when tics have to be done “just right.”

Idk, has this happened to anyone else? I feel ashamed to say that I don’t like suppressing because I realize it’s a luxury not everyone has, and it’s been helpful when I need it, but at the same time I can’t be myself if I do it constantly.

Personally I’ve always thought Tyler and Josh could find a way to make a really impactful “Addict with a Pen / Car Radio”

What songs would you like to see them transition to live?

I was kinda sad to learn that he’s actually saying “I’m twisted up.” I felt like “I’m too still” encapsulated a sort of desperation from a lack of emotion that can be part of schizophrenic disorders (fitting the bridge) or depression. Either way, it’s one of my favorite songs on Vessel. What do you think?

My personal favorites are MTV Unplugged’s Car Radio / Heathens for many reasons and SAI Livestream’s Choker / Stressed Out / Migraine / Morph / HOTY because of the transitions to Stressed Out and Migraine.

MTV’s Ride / Nico and the Niners is pretty good too, purely because of that guy’s kick drum noise and Tyler’s reaction to it

What are your favorites?

I absolutely hate having to leave school early or miss several classes in a row because of tics. I’ve been scared of becoming dependent on medicine so I haven’t tried any (going to try some soon, hopefully some PRN prescription). I try to suppress at school until I have an opportunity to use the restroom privately or if I’m the last leaving the class room etc.

It’s gotten to the point though where after suppressing for first period (and still a lot of head/arm jerks and vocal tics squeeze their way out) I can’t hold it in any more. Often around fifteen minutes into second period I can only hold in the really severe stuff, but I absolutely cannot write or use a computer or anything. Around ten minutes after that starts I typically just start essentially convulsing with tics. I’ve managed to accidentally launch a chair and dent my metal water bottle during some attacks.

Thankfully I can usually go to another room and hope there’s nobody there. At that point I can let everything out and sometimes I can get by with only missing one or two more class periods. At lunch we usually all play volleyball or kickball or something of that sort, so I try to just make it through to that part of the day and hope the fun will drown out the tics.

A lot of times, though, I find myself just hitting the ball as hard as I can and while everyone is distracted and trying to get it, I run behind a corner to convulse for a bit before coming back, and it can still be hard to even stand sometimes.

I’m just starting to develop coprolalia, too, so that’ll be an exciting new layer to add to all these episodes. I’ve had a vocal tic for a while, though, that has sometimes been confused for the n-word (it’s a very slurred version of “no get out”).

The worst part about all of this is that if I do end up going home early, I either have to tell the school while I’m suppressing or after the tic attack has already stopped but I’m just too exhausted to focus on anything or be around people. Thankfully the school is very understanding but it just makes me feel so fake. It feels like I’m using TS as an excuse to leave early (which I hate to do, I love my school!).

I also can’t really bring it up to friends as they’ve only ever seen my mild head jerks and vocal tics during the first or last periods of the day, and sometimes my hand shaking rapidly during lunch. I don’t want any of them to ever see me so vulnerable.

Anyway, thanks to anyone who read this giant post. I just needed to get some of these words on paper (or screen, rather), regardless of whether or not anybody actually sees it.

Hello. Since I was ~9, most of my vocal tics have been at least 1-2 sentences. They’re always either something that I’ve said before or something that has occurred as a “mental tic” in the months before becoming a vocal tic.

Recently I’ve been having curse words among those mental tics, and I’m scared they might turn into coprolalia. I’ve felt the urge to say some but have been able to suppress it until I can get to another room without people, or disguise it by inhaling loudly at the same time. I don’t think that will be a good solution in the long term, though, so I’m curious how anyone with coprolalia has coped.

(It may not turn out to become coprolalia since I’ve had some mental tics that don’t become vocal but I’d like to hear some answers anyway just in case)