Found an alternative that actually works for me!!
I’ve been picking for… many years. It’s exacerbated by the fact that I have acne even if I don’t pick at my skin.
I also have trypophobia.
most of the picking fidgets I could find wouldn’t work for me. They were either too close to the real thing, which would trigger wanting to pick my skin, or they triggered my trypophobia, or they were too messy for me to be comfortable with.
What’s been working? Cleaning my seashells.
I‘ve been collecting seashells since I was a little kid, and I always cleaned them with soap and water (and more recently, bleach), but you‘re still left with the remnants of the calcified periostracum, bits of sand and grit, etc.
Cleaning that out is close enough to picking, but not so close that it’s triggering, and it isn’t destructive/one-time use.
By the time I’m done with my shells for the day, I’ve satisfied my urge to pick. And once I’m done with shell, I can display it, because now it’s pretty and isn’t covered in sand and calcified matter.