I've lost the desire to be at church on Sundays. Has anyone been through something similar? Do you have any advice?
I have no doubts that the Church is true.
Part of my family and I joined the Church over 20 years ago, and I've been active ever since.
It has been a good and meaningful part of my life, and I'm grateful for it.
Over the years, I served a full-time mission, and earned my education. I've had just about every kind of calling, and to be honest, I've become somewhat burned out. Those of you for whom Sundays often felt like a full workday from 9:00 a.m. to 5:00 p.m. will probably understand what I mean.
One thing that never happened for me was finding my person. Part of the reason was that there were very few Church members in my country, and we all lived in different cities, so dating usually meant long-distance relationships. After my mission I went on plenty of dates with women in the Church. Sometimes I liked them, sometimes they liked me, but nothing ever developed into a lasting relationship.
I never made a tragedy out of it. I just kept living my life, working, and moving forward.
But then life happened, and now I feel like I'm entering an early midlife crisis.
Lately I've been rethinking my entire life. When I'm at church on Sundays, I still feel the presence of the Holy Ghost, but inside I feel empty. It's like I'm dead inside, yet I keep smiling, fulfilling my calling, and doing everything that's expected of me in what is, frankly, a pretty challenging ward if you know what I mean.
I'm not losing my testimony. I'm just exhausted, and I honestly don't know what to do next.