I don't care if I don't pass, I'm fckn hot
I'm definitely not non-binary, but I don't feel comfortable totally decked out in women's clothing and full makeup right now, specifically because I haven't had the FFS that I absolutely want. I think I'll get braver as time goes on, but I haven't even gotten laser for my face yet, so there's no way I pass.
All that being said... I look fucking good. People want to talk to me, I get hit on by both men and women, and I feel confident when I leave the house (in fact, confidence is my charm, I'm not like a model or something, by any means!) Yeah, there's transphobes everywhere, and that sucks, but it's not gonna change anytime soon. Any fear I am feeling goes away when someone smiles at me or talks to me like a human being.
I hope people here can find a way to stop letting the phobes win. They take up too much real estate in everyone's heads. I know things are bad, but there ARE wins, whether it's a state that rejects transphobic legislation or a bad guy who gets arrested, or even just putting on your make up and going, "fuck yeah, bitch, you are hot," on a minimally dysphoric day.
You can't treat every moment of your life as a loss or you'll lose your mind, and that's no good for anybody! 😘