u/throwawayprego30

I think we should call it quits.

My kid is as best ambivalent about my GF. I do not understand why because she is great with kids and great with my kid. My kid just does not respond.

I would marry her if I did not have my kid.

I unexpectedly had a lot of time off from work for a month. I just got back from 5 days in PA with my kid. We spent the weekend with my GF and her daughter (same age as mine) last weekend, then Monday-Thursday were in PA.

The plan for this weekend was to go to my GF’s (she didn’t have her daughter this weekend) this afternoon and stay til Monday.

My kid was literally in tears that she just wanted to be at home for a little bit.

It’s a very long story but I had to move back in with my mom and my brother ( I love him but he never launched) and her uncle is her favorite person.

So we stayed home.

My GF is mad at me.

I’m not thrilled to be at home. I wanted to go see her. I wanted to spend the weekend with her.

But I’m not going to put my selfish desires ahead of my kid just wanting to be home after being away.

She’s an amazing mom. If anyone should understand that it should be her. But she’s mad at her.

I get it. She had a hard day at work.

But…we can go up tomorrow and she has Monday off

I’m torn because her and I are fucking great. I love my kid. I got tricked into having her (it’s a long story) but I love her before everything else. But I’m annoyed that my GF is mad at me for not dragging my kid out when she desperately wanted to be at home. And my kid would have been miserable at her house and been shitty to her too.

She hasn’t even texted in 5 hours since I told her that I wasn’t going to come because she was so upset.

So I don’t know where I’m at.

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u/throwawayprego30 — 3 days ago

I genuinely hate being a mother and I don’t think anything is going to change it…

It’s been very nearly 7 years and all it has been is just a struggle.

He literally told me that he got me pregnant so I’d stay with him and I left anyway because he was using heroin. He died about a year after our kid was born. I didn’t know about his drug addiction until after it was too late to terminate.

If knew then what I knew now I wouldn’t even have to think about that choice. I love my daughter but I, from the depths of my soul genuinely, HATE being a mother.

I’m in therapy. I’ve been in therapy for nearly 3 years. No amount of talking or medication will change the fact that I fucking hate being Mom.

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u/throwawayprego30 — 2 months ago