i hate contradictions but im pretty confident in that, even in scs i still fit most with Ni Fe ego. maybe trauma? maybe split psyche like ru sociotype py types? who knows hm
I carry a lot of guilt regarding impulsivity, and was thinking about this a lot recently. I notice in problematic situations, my impulsiveness tends to be panic to the thought of having no time left, as if the present moment is the only and best moment to act, and letting that moment pass would cause a tragedy. Control is difficult when time is involved, because I'm afraid that if I don't fulfill a selfish desire, it will dissapear, I disconnect from myself, I'll feel like I experience death. Yes, even the desire to look like a good person is selfish, where I tend to excuse impulsivity through being a benefactor for someone else. The lines between truely being empathetic and selfishness are blurred
To 8s and 8 fixes, what are your thoughts on impulsivity and your relationship with it?
I remember watching and dropping it 2 years ago thinking that this could never be me and here I am now. jfl.
i do hope its good though, it seems overglazed