u/tsuki_wannabe_dino

hi what week usually pwede mag drop ng course? tyia!

genuinely? the reason why i don’t wanna reach out to other people and ask for their help is because i don’t want them to know that im struggling

idw them to know that i need help because who am i if im not the girl who can solve her problems alone? im afraid to let them know na im having a hard time and hindi ko sya malusutan hahaha

nakakahiya. na para bang bababa yung tingin nila sakin. na baka burden lang ako. na nakakatawa. kasi walang mapala sa buhay.

i don’t keep connections because i don’t want them to perceive that im actually weak.

wala naman maling humingi ng tulong, in fact, i want other people to ask me for help, i like doing favors for them because i felt needed.

kaya nga lang, in order to be needed, i also need to ask for help. i also need to reach out. and its a fucking hard thing to ask of me. kaya di ko magawa. na para bang something’s stuck on my throat whenever i try to ask for something.

maybe because naaapakan yung pride ko. yung pride ko na wala naman nadudulot na maganda sa buhay ko kundi siraain yung mga relationships ko sa ibang tao at mawala yung mga opportunities ko sa buhay. all because i refuse to reach out.