u/tulipsyearner

hello! staying at astoria right now and planning to go to town proper, ano po best way to go from here to there? yung shuttle kasi nila cut off na.

pwede po ba pumunta at bumili ng drinks sa rooftop bar nila kahit hindi ka po naka check in sakanila?

hello! meron po ba kayo alam nag bebenta ng hair curler around el nido town proper? or if meron po kayo binibenta kahit used na po. thanks in advance!

It’s been a month since my partner and I broke up (wlw). We were in a 5-year live-in relationship. I can say our relationship had a lot of ups and downs. We weren’t perfect, but we tried so hard to make it work.

Around 3 years into our relationship, sinabi ko sakanya one time, “Why not makipagkita ka sa ex mo to talk para mahalin mo na ako nang buo?” It was just a theory of mine. Feeling ko baka kaya hindi niya mabigay yung love na kailangan ko is because may unfinished business pa siya.

Fast forward to our 5th year, nag out of the country kami together. Nauna akong umuwi while she stayed there longer. The whole week na nakauwi na ako, sobrang dalang nalang niya magreply sakin. I tried not to overthink it kasi iniisip ko baka busy lang siya maglibot and uuwi rin naman siya eventually.

Nung hinatid niya ako sa airport before I left, sinabi niya sakin na may crisis siya kasi pa-30 na siya. Sabi ko sakanya, kung ano man kailangan niya, andito lang ako. Malalagpasan din namin yun together. She even promised me na hindi niya ako iiwan and that it was just a phase.

Pero pag uwi niya, everything changed. Sinabi niya na kailangan niya muna ng space para makapag-isip isip. I said okay, hindi ako magiging pabigat sakanya, basta wag niya lang akong iwan gaya ng promise niya.

Then eventually, sinabi niya sakin na nakipagkita siya sa ex niya for closure. For context, they were in an on-and-off LDR relationship for 3 years because the ex kept cheating on her. Pero nung mas nakausap ko siya, sinabi niya sakin na mahal niya pa rin yung ex niya. They were together the whole week while my partner wasn’t replying to me.

Naghiwalay kami and umalis na ako. Hindi na kami nakapag-usap nang maayos after that, and honestly, I don’t think kaya ko pa siyang kausapin.

I feel so lost. Sometimes okay ako na nag-end kami, but other times sobrang miss ko siya. Pero kapag naiisip ko ginawa niya, sobrang sakit ulit ng loob ko.

What frustrates me the most is pinakilala niya sakin yung sarili niya as someone na hindi cheater. Lagi niya rin sinasabi kung gaano siya sinira ng ex niya before and that she would never go back to that kind of relationship.

So now I keep asking myself, bakit siya babalik sa taong sumira sakanya? And during those 5 years, nasaan ako doon? If mahal niya pa rin pala yung ex niya all this time, ano ako sakanya non? Yung pinagsamahan ba namin, totoo ba yon? I’m so lost.