u/tuna-casserole777

Hey all

I’ve been on study abroad in Germany for two months and have another two months left in my program. The entire time I’ve been here I’ve been severely depressed. At first I tried to go out and enjoy myself but it’s gotten so bad that all I want to do is hide in the dark and cry. I’ve been struggling to properly take care of myself and haven’t been eating well or even at all some days. I’m falling behind in all my classes because of it and I don’t think I can recover. I’ve been so crushingly miserable that I genuinely fantasize about some medical or family emergency forcing me to go home.

I’d give anything to return to my home country, but I feel like a complete failure. I’ll never get another opportunity like this ever again. But at the same time I feel like I’m slowly dying here. I reached out to the program coordinator here and back home to ask about the consequences of leaving early. I’m terrified because I had a really hard semester last term and I cannot really afford more bad grades on my record. I qualified for a scholarship and the school paid for the program, but if I return and have to pay for it I don’t even know if I could. I don’t have a lot of money. And even if there aren’t any consequences, I’d feel so ashamed of myself. I don’t know what to do. I have a therapist back home but because of licensing he cant see me while I’m here, and I don’t speak good enough German to do German therapy and all the crisis hotlines I’ve found are also in German.

I feel so trapped and I’m starting to get a little desperate to escape this. Please help what do I do!!

Hello all!

I recently invested in a blender because smoothies are a good way to get plenty of vitamins and the like by sneaking in veggies and other things that are good for me. I’m admittedly a very picky eater :,)

I’m currently using just regular whole milk because thats what I keep at home, but I’m wondering if an alternative milk might get me more of the vitamins I need to make up. Would almond or soy give me more protein or something? Or is regular cows milk just ok? I’m new to all of this and am looking for advice! Similarly if anyone has a good smoothie recipe to try I’d love to hear it!

Thanks everyone!

Hey guys

I’m admittedly not totally sure if it’s ARFID or part of my OCD, but I really struggle with food. Specifically I’m Constantly worried about texture, flavor and it being contaminated to an honestly absurd degree. I’ve recently discovered that smoothies are usually acceptable for whatever reason and I’ve managed to sneak in spinach and bananas because it doesn’t affect the flavor much (at least not in a way I can’t tolerate) and then I can at least get Something other than prepackaged snacks and cereal into my diet

Does anyone have any other tips to make sure I’m still getting proper nutrients? Either by sneaking things in or maybe a multivitamin? The gummies honestly ick me out so if there’s pills I can take that’d be better. Even if I have to take multiple instead of one gummy it’s worth it. Any advice you can give would be much appreciated!! Thank you