u/twilightlikesinsects

I think I can physically feel it. It's painful. I feel weak

I got ni friends,not tight with family and no boyfriend or girlfriend OFCOURSE. I've been going through styff that's alot for me all alone. Im so thirsty of connection It made me so stupid. I used to think my mutuals in insta or people i talked to sometimes were my friends 😂😂😂.felt less lonely bt seeing People on ny screen when im scrolling Im not gonna talk about other shit loneliness makes me do yo. My chest hurts

Is this even a thing. I feel like an alien. I can't believe what I'm doing. I started procrastinating after 9th grade. I was really tired of those finals. Thwy were the first serious and difficult exams of my life. My school just pressured me so much,I could perform way well without it. Anyways that scared the heck out of me. After that I just started avoiding my work daily. At the same time I always was worried too lol. It kept going and ye here I am after 3 years still haven't done any work at all. I am ruining my life. I can't even enjoy myself while I'm wasting my time.