Accepted to the Elliot Gould School of Looks and Law at USC!
Was resigned to an R&R this cycle after being waitlisted everywhere, but looks like I'll be going to law school after all. Got $$$ and am already LA based, so feeling quite good even though I know my deadline applications hurt my results overall.
I'll continue to ride WL at Mich and UCLA, but super happy with this outcome should those not work out.
i don’t know why i’m posting here, but not sure what else to do about my life right now. i have diagnosed depression but also my life just sucks. i got laid off from a job i spent years building a few years back and have been on a downward spiral since.
i can’t seem to find a job in my line of work anymore even if i’m willing to take further pay and title cuts. was on my third downward career move before leaving that job and now i make a pittance doing freelance. i was irresponsible with my money during a period of instability last fall and lost a bulk of my accessible safety net (lucky enough to have some money in an old 401k but i’m basically out of cash). chronic pain (stemming from a car accident at the start of said period of instability) has messed up my sleep and makes it hard to work out. i tried Lexapro but it made me manic (big contributor to my awful time last year) and then i lost my health insurance due to a break-up with my long term partner so i haven’t seen a psych and had to wean myself off the meds so i stopped feeling insane
i just don’t know what to do to shake me from this funk. i have a supportive and loving family but almost no friends to speak of… text with some folks from my college and have a couple friends from high school but they live nowhere near me. since stopping Lexapro i have been less self-destructive but now i just feel paralyzed.
before my breakup and car accident i had been working to reorient my professional life and apply to law school but ended up applying late in the cycle and wasn’t accepted anywhere. i have no career prospects and no idea what i want to do anyway. i have one major hobby (not sharing so i don’t dox myself) but haven’t been able to make any lasting friends or relationships through it… i meet up with folks to do the hobby but we don’t speak otherwise. i’ve tried to invite hobby “friends” to non hobby activities and get told they are too busy or not interested.
i finally got an affordable therapist again in January and he’s honestly saved my life. but i struggle to make lasting improvement through our work because of constant failure in my day to day. one hour a week is better than nothing but it really isn’t enough for my current state
i just feel like giving up and am tired of pretending i’m ok for the benefit of others. i feel like i’m doing everything i’m supposed to do but life just feels like a humiliation ritual. i’m less and less motivated to continue every day.
i don’t know what i’m looking for here but needed to get this shit off my chest in an anonymous way. i’m just sick of feeling so alone in my failure all of the time. if anyone else feels the same way and/or has any advice i’m definitely open to hearing other perspectives.