u/unclaimedcamper

Hiii! So I'm a highschooler who's going to get a Boston brace next week and I suddenly got really anxious so I just really needed to get these questions out lol

My main concern is how to handle the heat HAHAHA. Since it is a hunk of plastic, I expect to be really hot in it, and I live in a country where we only get heat, a few weeks of rain and slightly less frying weather, then back to heat. So it's going to be a big struggle trying not to overheat and sweat like a faucet, especially in school where I can't wear 2 layers of clothing forever. Does anybody have any tips for that? 🥹🥹

What else should I expect when I start bracing? I already went through a handful of posts on here about what to expect and stuff but I still don't feel ready. Ik I'll never fully be ready and have the same experiences, but I still want to have something to expect, good or bad, just so things aren't so "well let's just see what happens"

Alsoo, what are funny reasons to give people when they ask why I brace HAHAHAHA. This is more just for me, scoliosis isn't really a known thing where I am. People just immediately think of a posture issue. I just want to mess with people, something sarcastic to not make them freak out and think I got injured or something lmao

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I don't know where to start oh my godss.

Okay, so I (16F) is being courted (or flirted with I don't know the difference huhu) by my best friend (16M) for more than half a year now. This wouldn't be such a big deal if I wasn't aroace, and most likely qupioromantic. For those who don't know, being aroace is a combination of being aromantic and asexual,, where someone feels little to no romantic and sexual attraction. And being qupioromantic is wanting to be in a relationship, but well, you can't feel romantic love. I discovered I was aroace a few weeks after he confessed and I came out to him of course. I try to be pretty open about my identity to him, like explaining how important platonic love is to me and stuff.

So after trying to go no contact (we ended up talking again after 2 weeks lmao) he would come to me every now and then with questions and doubts (stuff like "why not me?). It hurts sometimes, but I want him to come to me with questions about us instead of keeping quiet,, we both want to stay friends so we're trying to work things out.

He came to me again talking about the lyrics of a song from a musical we loved,, he quoted "I'm angry and tired and restless and sad. I'm stuck in the moments I swore that we had. I wish you would chase me, or try to embrace me, for once I wish you would lie and say". I couldn't finish the lyrics. The next line was "I love you. But not in the way that you want me too". ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ

I don't know what came over me to send him what I was thinking about for the past few days. When I saw someone say "instead of falling in love with someone, I chose to love them",, he was the first person I thought of. And I texted him with the quote and said "is it weird to say I think I can try if you still want to but I'm scared too lmao"

I did explain later on about why I was scared and he comforted me and answered my questions about it. He then asked me what changed for me to think like that when I told him that I can't feel love like that. He deleted it really quickly tho. Now I feel stupid and guilty for acting on an impulsive thought without getting my feelings straight on my end first. I know that was really shitty. I feel like I just most definitely gave him false hope of us getting into a relationship. We haven't talked in a little bit. We just needed time to think things through. But I don't know where to go from here so I'm kinda just rambling now HAHHAHAHA. I just need someone to knock some sense into me ig

I hope the flair is okay, I just need to rant for a little bit ┐⁠(⁠´⁠ー⁠｀⁠)⁠┌

I just came home from my first physical therapy session and gods I'm so tired and embarrassed HAHAHAHHA. I wasn't that anxious to go, but when it was happening I could stop thinking about how embarrassing it was that I was shaking during the exercises, and how exposed I was ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ (they made me wear a fabric hospital gown that was open in the back and came loose in the front a lot) I have a bit of a tummy and really insecure about my body, I know it doesn't matter but it just feels really uncomfy

Thankfully I only have 5 sessions left, and I know this is supposed to help me but still dodndkfnsidnd

I'm also kinda scared to get a brace. I don't know when I'm getting one but having to wear one in the summer, and especially now at school we're about to have more physical work and stuff (idk what it's called everywhere else but we call it COCC training that all highschoolers have to go through) when school opens back up again ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ