I started having panics because I felt no one cares and I will never have friends. Then i interacted with someone who was living the same life that I have lived. Dealing with narcissistic parents. At this point idk what is making me more sad and crying, I feel so bad for them that they have to live through that pain. I don't want anyone to go through what I am going through. It feels like I am grieving them and me at the same time
How do i accept the fact that I'll never have anyone care about me. I'll never have close friendship. I'll never have a life that I wanted because of how my mind is. I am panicking really hard, hurting a lot. The fact that I'll never be having someone who cares as much as i do. What to do with this realisation
How do i know if I am an introvert? Because i finally have understood I'll never have friends in real life. Why am I like this. How does someone know if they are introvert. Help I am panicking
Idk. Suddenly this question came to me and I am really curious because i have been in survival mode my entire life
I thought I was doing better. But today we are back where I was. After controlling myself self harm tendencies for so long, i again hit myself today. Everytime I think it's not that bad, I go back to being miserable when I am alone. Idk what to do with my life. I hate being alone. I wish i could have people who could understand me .
I see a wounded person in evryone who hurts me. And that's what leads to me tolerating stuff and abuse. I have been insulted so many times just for having friends. Someone I opened up to used my vulnerability to rip me off my character and dignity. They literally called me a whore for having friends. It makes me feel so heavy and hurt. All I wanted was a friendship based on trust and safety. I have heard since childhood that hurt people hurt people. But i believe when you repeat a behaviour more than one time you know exactly what you are doing. There is no forgiveness or excuse for that.
People use their mental illness to justify their bad behaviour. People need to understand that your mental illness doesn't make you bad. Sometimes you are a bad person with a mental illness.
I am happy and living my life and..boom..A call from my father and everything becomes scary. I just hate it so much. So much that he controls how i feel about life, myself and the world. I.. am so scared right now. I just wanna die
I just had lunch and idk what is happening now. Out of nowhere, I am anxious. My head hurts and it's scary that I don't wanna be alone but I also don't want to burden anyone. I want someone to reach out to me, rather than me doing it. But i also feel so ashamed that I dont want to be seen. What do I do? I feel like killing myself
I have been people pleasing a lot since last few weeks. Idk what to do about it. And at this point, idk if it's bearable for me or not. I am visibly uncomfortable by my decisions and how spend my time. It gives me stress anxiety and panic attacks. But it's not completely intolerable. I feel confused. Why am I stuck with this. Why can't I do what i want to do. Why do i have to stick with something. It's like idk if I want to do it or not. If someone can help me figure what is happening here.