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For context i’m 18[F], starting university this year to do an english degree and since i’ve spent a lot of time considering options for my future ive come to realise that the entire prospect of it feels so draining. I’m not excited to start university, i dislike the entirety of the UK tbh and feel like everyone around me has such a suffocating and depressing outlook on life… the thought of finishing uni and settling in the same city with a job and partner etc genuinely makes me physically sick.
I don’t know whats wrong with me, but it’s not just me being dramatic I feel a complete sense of despair looking at the next few years of my life and have been in a state of depression/existential crisis for about 2 years now, I can’t enjoy daily life and normalcy and it makes me feel so disconnected from ppl my age, without sounding pretentious I feel like there’s someplace or something i should be that I’m not and i’m not fulfilling my purpose.

All things considered im aware that i’m very lucky to be healthy and have so many opportunities that others don’t in life, but I am incapable of being happy about it.