Missed dose
I missed my dose today (well technically yesterday since it's 3am) and I'm currently forcing myself to stay awake long enough for my meds to kick in. I can't even begin to explain how horrifying tonight has been. When I was laying in bed to go to sleep I couldn't force myself to stay awake it's like I involuntarily went to sleep and I went straight into sleep paralysis. I woke up off and on but when I would wake up I couldn't tell if I was awake or not. I even got up and went to the bathroom and couldn't tell if I was dreaming still or not. I know I for sure got up and was walking around looking back at it, but in the moment i was in complete derealization. My dreams were horrifying and being awake was just as scary. It literally felt equivalent to like an acip trip. When I was laying in bed before falling asleep I was hallucinating. My whole body won't stop itching. I hope the meds kick in soon and give me some relief. I've never experienced something like this in my life, it was so scary and I feel like a crazy person. I considered going to the hospital but I'm going to try to ride it out and call my doctor when I can. If this is what happens to me after only missing one dose, I'm getting off this med because I'm terrified of accidently experiencing this again. Has anyone else ever dealt with similar withdrawal symptoms? I feel crazy. I'm on 40 if that matters