u/vic557

I've been dealing with depersonalization/derealization for a while now, recently it's been progressing to kind of existential OCD (I'm pretty sure I don't actually have ocd, but it's the closest term I know for what I feel right now), and I've been fixated on death a lot too (As in, I can't stop thinking about it, and I'm terrified. I'm NOT experiencing suicidal ideation). Secondarily a loss of energy and appetite. It's genuinely unbearable at this point.

I want to try to get help (like counseling or medication), but I don't know where. I'm a minor and I don't really want to tell my parents the specifics because they're already stressed and have their own issues, I don't want to scare them. I'm in online school, so I don't have a school counselor to tell. Do I just tell my normal doctor?

I'm scared of getting put in a mental hospital. I'm also scared the doctor/therapist will tell my parents the specifics if I talk to them.

I'm sorry if this is the wrong sub or flair btw I don't use reddit much.

I've been dealing with dpdr for as long as I can remember but I've never told anyone. Usually I'd just deal with it and try to distract myself/ignore it but recently it's been so genuinely unbearable that I can't do ANYTHING. I think I finally want to ask for help(ie counseling/meds) but I'm so scared that dpdr is sort of contagious. Like, if I describe that I don't feel real, I don't want the person I'm talking to, to spiral like I did. Especially my parents, since they're already stressed, but they're all I can talk to to get better help. Will they have to deal with this hell if I tell them???

I need help about a week ago I became really fixated on the topic of death and the afterlife I'm not too sure what triggered it I think it's because I made a joke about judgement [day] and then I really thought about it...and then I kept thinking about it and now I can't stop. Seriously. I've only been able to cope with endless distraction via my phone and I feel terrible. I can't get off my phone for more than like three minutes without spiraling. I'm barely eating, sleeping like crap, barely moving, all because of this, it's literally all consuming. and doomscrolling makes my brain feel like it's melting, I just want this to stop, I can't get medication/therapy for now I think. I don't want to tell my parents because I don't want to scare them since they're already stressed but I want this to go away, but idk how to cope.

Sorry if this is the wrong sub for this question btw I don't use reddit much.