I have been on HRT for a little over a year. The first three pictures is long before I came out and had fallen hard into fem overcompensating. I was in deep deep denial. But god I’m so much happier now. I’m comfortable expressing myself in my own skin. I definitely have a long way to go still. But I wanted to celebrate my progress
I’ve noticed a particular pattern within job interviews and I hate that I’ve noticed this but I’ve noticed I never get hired when I am presenting as myself. If I present as a woman with good makeup I have, without fail, gotten the job.
I don’t pass at all and am painfully aware of it so I’m pretty sure this has something to do with it. I don’t know if I’m placing assumptions where they don’t belong so I wanted to ask: Is this just something only I go through and the cause is nothing but the shitty job market and I’m placing self hate somewhere it doesn’t belong, or has anyone else noticed this pattern in themselves?
This image really sums up how yall are acting. You are not entitled to a verosika short. If the show runners decided to never ever show her again because she didn’t fit in their vision that would be okay! If you want more verosika before more content is given? Make fanworks like a normal fandom instead of bitching that they won’t make it per your demands.
If anything them teasing that they’re aware you guys want verosika means they’re probably planning something for her, just not yet.
Touch some grass I beg of thee.
I am tired of being told by my close friends I “sound like/pass as/look like a man.” I get that they’re attempting to make me feel better about my dysphoria and they want to be nice but if I sounded like a man I wouldn’t be called ma’am on the phone by strangers before I’ve told them my name. I wouldn’t be referred to basically exclusively by she/her by my clients if I looked like a man. I wouldn’t be handed the women’s bathroom key by restaurant employees if I passed. My family would get my pronouns right at least half the fucking time if I did. I wouldn’t be having any of these issues if they were telling the truth. No cis man looks like me. I get frustrated when they tell me this because I know they’re lying to spare my feelings. If they said “you are a man to me” that would be different than just lying and saying I look like one. I know I don’t, they know I don’t, I have fucking F cups. I’m 5’6. Who are they trying to convince? Themselves?
I think the most frustrating part is I want them to be right. I want nothing more than for them to be telling me the truth. I’ve been on T for over a year. I WISH it was true. I wish I looked like a man. I wish I passed. I thought my voice was starting to get there but then I heard my voice back in karaoke last night and any sliver of confidence I had that I was even slightly man-like came crumbling to the ground. I’m just a little hairy and have a slightly deeper voice than I used to. And it’s infuriating to hear people try to gaslight me into believing something provably false. I don’t know what to say to them either because I don’t want my friends lying to me to spare my feelings but if I argue back they double down on it. I don’t know how to express that it hurts. It’s not like they don’t understand either they’re both trans women they should get it. I’m just tired of it I guess.