u/vinylarcade

What if everyone lives in their own simulation, and just interacts with everyone in their simulations through some kind of connection (like telepathy). Maybe all of us are in the end energies or gods interacting without knowing not everyone lives the same life.

This could be seen on different level like this

1. My red is not your red. I see red you see blue. Our minds are connected so we know what each other mean. Sometimes there are errors in the matrix (like the gold blue dress). Sour is sweet for some of us.

2. My room is not your room. Not just our senses are different, but besides spatial boundaries. What we see is not the same at all. If I go through a club you are going to something completely different in your dimension which is the equivalent.

3. Timewimey. I live in the present you live in the past. The things we use and see are just the equivalent of it.

4. Money is not real. Everything is a concept. How we see it is different for everyone. Maybe I see money. But money is maybe just magic energy how we create in my universe. I live with scarcity because my energy is not high enough. If I have more mana I can create more. Same goes for different things. Like internet, maybe Internet is a magic way to connect to the ether, and I get information through it through a concept I can imagine, maybe for others it works different that they can just tap into the information stream without a device.

5. We all are energy. Everyone is their own god. The more you realize it you can change your own reality/simulation. If I stop believing enough in scarcity, maybe I not just become rich money will not exist anymore(star trek, post scarcity civilization)

I realized I have telepathy last year. In the beginning I thought I was Schizophrenic(which I accept I still might be on top of it, but I know that in some cases it was telepathy). But got more and more prove. With someone basically confirming it to me a month ago. The signs where always there since I was a kid, I think of songs and someone around me sings it, or a DJ plays it as the next song. I want to write a person and the person writes me same time. And at least ten times people said they where just thinking about me when I wrote them.

Question now is how can I pause telepathy. It gives me constant anxiety as I think I broadcast all the time, even if I got better with it. Talking to someone attractive makes me afraid that I think about them in my head while talking to them and they realize. Or just the fear of thinking something stupid or bad gives me anxiety that it's sometimes like a pink elephant. I not want to think something weird, even if its just something small that I have to go to the toilet and not wanting to broadcast it to everyone. I also sometimes feel like someone does not like me, and I am afraid that I get the thought back and then they think I also not like them, even if I not even care about them or sometimes even like them. And then have a thought loop about this as well.

Then I think I pick up thoughts about me, hear the thought and think I broadcast this thought to everyone around me, them thinking it is my own thought. I know if it is my own thought or not as I can hear the difference between my internal voice and the voices of others.

I also know that there are people who try to negatively influence me, in real life but also in dreams(which also got indirectly confirmed through several sources). I think they gave up mostly.

Question now is how do people stop broadcasting especially if they are in social situations(clubs, public transport...)? As it would help me be a lot more social if I can control my psychic gift(which is one of many I have, but the only one which currently negatively influences me).