Has anyone struggled to rebuild their confidence after a difficult first job?
Hi everyone,
I'm looking for some perspective because I'm still trying to process my first year in the workforce.
I graduated in January 2025 and started my first graduate role as an IT Business Analyst at a consulting firm working with public institutions.
The first couple of months went well. Although most of my work involved documentation, I assumed that was normal for a junior BA and expected I'd gradually move into more hands-on analysis and IT-related work as I gained experience.
Things became much more difficult after that.
I often felt like I was expected to produce work at the same level and in the same style as colleagues who had years of experience, despite receiving relatively little coaching on how to get there. A few other BAs also mentioned experiencing something similar, so I don't think I was the only one who found the learning curve challenging.
I genuinely tried to improve. I regularly worked extra hours, completed training courses in my own time, asked questions, and put a lot of effort into developing my skills. Despite that, I felt that my managers became increasingly frustrated with my performance.
Over time, I started doubting myself. My confidence dropped significantly, my motivation disappeared, and I eventually reached the point where I felt burned out. I didn't take sick leave, but I remember spending entire workdays with constant chest pain and feeling tense all the time. I became convinced that everyone thought I wasn't good enough.
I was placed on a Performance Improvement Plan, which was particularly difficult because one of the Delivery Managers I worked with for around 80% of my time was generally satisfied with my work. His feedback was that I mainly needed more coaching and experience as a BA (which he couldn't do since he's a Developer / Delivery Manager). Unfortunately, I don't believe his perspective was given much weight compared with feedback from other senior managers who worked with me the first 6 months of my tenure in the job.
I've recently accepted a new Business Analyst role at an insurance company, and I'm genuinely excited about the opportunity. However, I've realised that this experience has affected me more than I expected.
I used to be a very open, optimistic person who assumed people wanted to help each other. Now I find myself second-guessing everything I do, expecting criticism, and struggling to trust managers or believe positive feedback.
I'm trying to understand what I can learn from this experience without letting it define me.
Has anyone else gone through something similar early in their career? How did you rebuild your confidence and stop carrying the anxiety from one job into the next? Looking back, were there things you realised you could have done differently, or was it more about finding an environment that supported your growth?
I'd really appreciate hearing from people who've been through something similar.