u/vvslitslitvvut

had filler but it moved around and got it dissolved. was informed in counseling that i have the type of folds that are formed from lack of fat or a gap.

any options that aren’t filler?

i originally have arfid and mild~severe anxiety. restriction started from middle school by never eating at lunch or public. even if i ate my anxiety would purge it out. developed an “actual ed” from covid. worse in college years, relapsing on and off again.

i no longer look like i have an ed but i still desire it. i trembled and left over food on a date the other day. taking my meds a little more that help me restrict or being more drink cal conscious.

but i just know it. i can’t live like this forever. i’m going to die younger and be those people that develop issues and go out in their 30s. or succeed in attempting. i can feel it in my veins like it’s my fate. i can feel the clock ticking.