u/vvvenusinfurs

TW:ed

i can't help having some sort of a hierarchy in my mind and it goes like this:

1 (the best) Anorexia

2 (meh) bulimia

3 (absolute worst) BED

i feel like such a lowlife for being bulimic, i kind of idolize anorexia at this point,it's like a cult where the god is self control,also,did Buddhist monks have anorexia?i mean they used to starve themselves,i really admire them for that,i feel like food is evil,like there's some sort of conspiracy and pro food propaganda everywhere,i still fall for it sometimes,but when i get lucky enough to not eat for a day or two,i reach flow state,it feels euphoric,i can't explain it but i feel so divine

sorry if this is triggering ,i dont know how to fix it

I am still in high school,1bac sm,but I've always wanted to study psychology and dreamed about becoming a therapist,but I keep hearing bli aghlabya d nas li 9raw psychology kay9lboha asatid d lflsafa which I DO NOT want,is becoming a therapist that hard?is it even worth it?

I am still in high school,1bac sm, but I've always loved psychology,and dreamed about becoming a therapist,but I keep hearing that aghlabya d nas li 9raw psychology kay9lboha asatid d lflsafa which I DO NOT want,is becoming a therapist that hard?is it worth it at all?