As messed up as I am. Walking up to the restaurant, and saying, so lost and confused. “A table of 1,”. Going to get my regular, a clam chowder and maybe try something else. But, I need to see the sky, the sunset. Before I go.
This is a struggle. Taking mom for throat surgery tomorrow. I know at least a few here that know me personally and have even talked to MamaLig and know me and MamaLig, personally, I’m taking her to her surgical procedure tomorrow morning. I’ve set my alarms for somewhere around 4am. Drank my alcohol. Now. Waiting for the buzz portion to burn off.
An eating disordered life. I can continue to type. I feel at, times, it’s hard to describe struggling with an ED. I feel fortunate that I have people who care about me and know that I struggle, and have shared “Hey, I know you struggle with this, but I don’t know anything about it, but I’m here for you,” I’m wandering around. Looking for a place.
Before my post gets removed. Okay I didn’t grow up like this. I never expected or wanted this. I grew up poor. I’m not rubbing anything in anyone’s faces. My family, my children, they all know the physical, sexual, mental abuse in my life. Loaded with money? My life is not what you think. Which is why, please remove me forever from your sub. That r/CA_Boiler_Room private whatever. I don’t belong here.
It’s alright. We all see and live and hear a version of this life. You. Kenticus or anyone involved in Boiler Room, that, I’ve removed myself from. It’s okay. Love you:) You control things. Took over the music sub that you NEVER created in the first place. All good. There’s so much that means, I’m trying to make sense of it all. I can’t post it anything here because of,,,, and this is why it’s all so much,,,,,, a thing.
In a second. Watch a someone,,, I always get deleted.
Love you Kenticus. And that’s what I am. Constantly removed, deleted, discarded. I hope someone can see this post before it’s removed, which it will be. I already know I’m going to be removed. I truly hope the best for everyone here. There’s no argument.