Said to be manic though by my treatment team.. :p music is so beautiful I get transformed into a new dimension. BUT I TOOK THE BUS WITH A CHANGE IN BUSES FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER! And I will not be doing that again😉 !! Why I took the buses? I wanted a chu-Totoro teddy!!😁😁 barely slept anything last night I actually took a pill to help me get to sleep because otherwise I will literally soon be flying!! :D
Diagnosed paranoid schizophrenia. Have mania and depressive episodes so they say I might have schizoaffective.
Is this common in schizophrenia ? Manic like energy, but not quite it.
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I haven’t been able to read for ages before this past week, but since last Tuesday I’ve been on reagila/cariprazine and I’ve been able to read a lot of books again! I thought I should share this with you, as it’s good news!
Changing from xeplion (paliperidone) to cariprazine, I’m feeling more like myself very exited 😁😁 energised 😁😁 3.5 weeks since the injection, never again. Pill number 5 of reagila. I’m very odd and I like it 😁😁
Vegan nuggets so yummy. Mc fries yummy. I have trouble speaking my thoughts are being taken and dissolved my thoughts and speech disappear. I got good news today I am allowed meds change. Reagila after summer. Also get a psychologist and new psychiatrist.
What is your experience?
I am stiff in my movements and walking. My nurse will call me in couple hours. I am scared.
I have a nurse coming to my home tomorrow so I am safe, but I am having trouble speaking, it’s like the words and thoughts are dissolving while I speak. Is this common in schizophrenia? And my heart is pounding.
I am being persecuted, being tested against my will like in the mk ultra. I feel there is no hope. What do I do? The hospital is part of the mk ultra. There’s an invisible system working against me and testing me persecuting me. I have no hope.
I’m scared everyone is in on something I don’t know. My brain feels infected literally. My home nurse has messaged me asking how I am but I don’t know what or if to respond cause I don’t know if everyone is in on some conspiracy against me, and he is too. I really hope he isn’t cause I really trust him. What do I do please
Voluntarily this time, only for a few days
I complied about court ordered meds but it got declined yesterday and when I got the message I got so upset and started hearing voices and lost control head banging, I had to go to the er with my mum now I have a concussion.
I have been feeling more suspicious the last week about the worlds system and secret spies, secret agency etc. i have a lot of stress about newly renewed court ordered meds and treatment that I’ve filed a complaint about, to a commission that’s supposed to review my case, to see if I should still be forced to take meds and be in treatment. It’s stressing me out, I feel they are all cooperating to do tests on me like MK ultra or the Truman show. And that this is all some sick test. , that I am not from earth, but am a star or angel that they’re testing, or that the world’s leaders are all aliens who cooperates with the devil. It’s a strange world and I don’t know who I should talk to about it because my parents and friends say it’s my ‘illness’ that’s making me believe this stuff, then I think ‘they’ve tricked them too’. My named nurse from my treatment team has been away for some weeks, and he’s coming back on Tuesday which is the day of my monthly injection, which I don’t know if I will be taking, but if I don’t, they send the ambulance and police to take me to hospital. It’s all messed up.
Specifically xeplion. I think I have gained weight and I will check when I get home from holiday. I never have trouble with weight gain off meds, and I always lose weight when I stop them, but on meds my weight slowly goes up :(