Everyone looks good, I don’t understand
Half the time I can get on in life thinking I look pretty okay, but the caveat to this is only if I see a very select amount of people (close family, partner, child etc)
As soon as I go anywhere else it’s like I’m plonked around all the normies and bdd screams at me. And it’s not even that their features are perfect but everyone knows how to dress and accessorise and look like themselves. And it honestly pisses me off because I feel like I could get there but I’m constantly trying to figure out something I can’t seem to grab hold of. Nothing ever seems to fit me right, little too scruffy, too short, just off.
And then on the rare occasions I can get on in life it then amps up to photos etc. I take no photos because I know I look horrible in them and it crashes down my world view. And yet how can everyone take great photos. I can’t take any that are good, which then backs up the fact that I just look worse than everyone else if I’m incapable of taking one nice photo. Yes I’m uncomfortable, scrutinising, but it’s objectively worse.
I just can’t fathom how someone can get in a group photo do a nice cheesy smile and just look lovely? My sister sends them all the time of her and friends in group chat and it blows my mind. I wish for that. Just to stand there and know you look good and be happy to be captured. Imagine knowing who you are and then liking it 🤯. Life would make so much more sense.