u/whatalifeohmy

Hi, I hope all of you were able to enjoy at least thing in your day.
Has anyone rode rides with their port? If so did you have any pain?

I don’t understand! I NEED someone to explain to me how I can be saved. I know that it says I’ll be saved because I call on the lord & believe/ follow Jesus. BUT I’ll never be able to stop sinning??? What if I run out of grace , but follow him and continue to repent??? What if I don’t gather enough people to bring to Christ ?? I’m scared of hearing “depart from me I never knew you”. I already feel that my days are numbered. I know I’ll never be good enough but I don’t get it.

Feels like having “hope” isn’t worth it anymore. I try my hardest to remain positive & grateful, but it getting harder day by day. I’m 26 & honestly I can’t imagine dealing with this disease the rest of my life?? It truly looks like everyone has it better than me. Yes I know compassion is the thief of joy, but holy cow. Everyone has hair, great job, apartment/houses, traveling, husbands/boyfriends , babies.. and me? CANCER, hot flashes, invisible sex drive, living with my mom, losing hair, brain fog, skin problems, ANXIETY.
Not to mention I feel so bad that I can’t properly show up for my mom tomorrow for Mother’s Day. Everyone wants me around, but I don’t want to keep dealing with this. I feel like a burden. Putting on a mask just to keep everyone happy. I pray everyday that this goes away. It’ll be a year in July. I don’t even want to think about doing this for another year let alone another month. Sorry I know this isn’t nice but no one gets it.

Has anyone done ten rounds of low dose radiation on the brain? If so what was it like? What should i expect..
how much hair will I lose..?
I have my first session tomorrow

I’m struggling to find a job here or really anywhere.. I’m 26yo female with stage 4 cancer and in DESPERATE NEED to be employed.

I just need someone or someplace who’s willing with my chemotherapy schedule. I don’t have many appointments or health problems.

I’m willing to do almost anything.

Went in for radiation treatment & got denied because new spots popped up. Now I have to do whole brain 10 sessions & will loose my hair.

Tomorrow I have a pet scan to see if chemo is even working.

26 fighting for my life & have nothing to show for it. I hate this. I’m so miserable.

Some days I wish I would’ve just never gotten checked.