u/wheatdown

brought up how she stole thousands of dollars from me when i was 18. sent her screenshots of her admitting to it and apologizing when it happened. i’m now 28. stuff has been stolen and more situations have happened but this was the first big thing she did to me as an adult. ever since i was a kid it’s been all in my head. i’m delusional. i’m a liar. i’m 28 and she still gives me the silent treatment. i, and everyone in her life, is used as a cash cow. i have SO MUCH TO SAY. oh my god. when i was 5 i broke my arm and she didn’t believe me for over a day. same thing happened when i was 9. no hospital until a family member convinced her to take me; cast up to the shoulder both times. she duct taped my hands in over mits when i was a kid and closed the garage door on me. she let my sister steal valuables and money from me. she has done so much i want to go on and on forever. im 100% NC with basically my whole family because of her. i’m 100% NC with my dad for 8 years due to mostly her lies. i texted him last week and we are planning to meet up. i have my aunt back in my life and she told me the family always asks about me because they’re worried. my mom is the victim and the hero in every story.

i want to explain everything she’s ever done because i never feel believed. it’s all in my head and im delusional and wrong about literally everything. and im fat and need to lose weight and oh god im really wearing that dress out…oof

i am no contact with my dad and my only sister. i will see my dad soon. my sister i will never ever be in contact with again (it’s been 10 years for my sister 100% NC). i feel tricked and gullible for honestly ever thinking my mom ever wanted me to have a good life. she wants me to be broke and miserable just like her. i am moving, new lease starts today. current apartment lease is up in october. i lied to my mom about where i was going

i am currently arguing with her right now, i am emotional. i feel like moving is the light at the end of the tunnel. it is so scary. she is so manipulative and i’m scared i’m going to cave. we moved into this current apartment when i was 21. she has no credit or savings or anything. her name and my name are on the lease. mine is on xfinity and electric. she said she’s not allowed to get PECO (electric company) in her name due to her having no credit. not even sure if that’s true, idc tbh, and then the sob story started from there. i agreed to re sign the lease for 1 more year so she can figure herself out. like 4 years ago she told me i had 30 days to find somewhere to go because she was moving with her boyfriend. i moved half my shit to a room in a random 50 year old man’s house. her bf ended up dying so she didn’t move… 🤷🏼‍♀️ she’s into drugs of course. she tries to say she doesn’t remember or she tries to act dumb or she tries to cry and be the victim always. she has NEVERRRRRR been held accountable for her actions.

i have a therapist and a very supportive boyfriend but i’m still struggling this is so hard. i know i have to cut contact, i just can’t stand knowing she is telling her stupid friends that i’m a liar and im delusional. i want to write a fuck you letter and leave. i don’t know how to handle this in a way where i wont regret doing something/ not doing something.

i feel just so tired all of the time. i’ve always been told it’s most likely heavy periods. my period always lasts 5 days and i really don’t think my periods are THAT heavy. i have celiac disease and have eaten 100% gluten free since i’ve been diagnosed around 9 years ago. i take my vitamins. are these results something i should be pushing harder on? i see my PCP on thursday