Graduated in 2022 with a useless BCom degree and been a NEET since then. I don't think even BPOs will accept me now. Has anyone been able to get a job after such a long gap? If yes, please share what you did and what worked for you?
This bothered me on my first watch, but it's even more noticeable on a rewatch. It doesn't seem like Rudy is intentionally hiding the fact that he's married and expecting a child. I can understand him not bringing it up while they're exploring the labyrinth since they need to stay focused on the mission. But in this scene they're reminiscing about the past and catching up on each other's lives.
Given the context of the conversation, it feels strange that Rudy never mentions such major developments in his life. Is there any explanation for this in the light novels?
It often feels like I never really learned how to be human. I dread every phone call and every conversation. I never know the right thing to say or even how to keep a conversation going. If I stay quiet for too long, the pressure to say something starts building, but when I do speak, it often comes out sounding stupid, awkward, or unintentionally offensive. Then I keep replaying it in my head, wondering what I should have said instead and agonizing over it for a long time. As a result, I become even quieter, and the cycle repeats itself.
There's also an added layer of anxiety whenever I feel like I'm being observed by someone else while talking or trying to do something. I become hyperaware of everything I say and do, which only makes it harder to act naturally. Living like this is exhausting, and I hate feeling trapped in this cycle.