Also yes i defend Billy ray and tanith till the day i leave this world because they are way better then tanith and ghastly
So i dont know what happend but bots dont talk anymore they just describe what the chracter is doing instead of having conversation also what i realized recently is that the bot knows nothing anymore about the beings and universes they are supposed to refernce and i mean nothing also the filter just filters out any form of violence even punches and or a paper cut cutting yourself by accident during cooking and so go one i mean it just feels like a cheap rp app that dosenr care about its users anymore
My best friends blocked me without reason my bf cheated my mom ingores me aswell al i have left is a crappy apartment and an underpayed jobs i have no friends left no one to talk to and now im thinking why not end it all if nobody loves you anyways
So i already talked about some of my problems here a week ago and how i have the constant urge to hurt or well like i sayed im not gonna admitt my darkest toughts in the internet.But anyways i was on my way home yesterday waiting for the train there where a few other people with me one of them a woman in her maybe mid twenties and well she didnt do anything no the problem with her are her eyes as she looked at me for a few seconds i did not like how blue they where so i constantly where thinking about hurting her and how to hurt her as quick as possible before the ohter people would reach me i was already getting up but then my train arrived and so i took it instead and now i feel like im becoming some kind of whatever cause i dont know what i wouldve down without my train arriving a few minutes earlier then it shouldve
I dont know if this even fits in here but i need to speak about my toughts or rahter one specific tought i have over and over again trough out every singel day to hurt anohter living being no not just hurting a lot of the times i think about well you know i dont really wanna admit my way of thinking here but i guess you all know what im implying so yeah back to waht i wanted to say im really suffering under those toughts cause they sometimes turn into the urge to do it,it can happen everytime when im at work when im in the bus or when im walking home then i just see a person and think gods i really want to hurt them in pretty bad ways like i sayed there is never a set reason and that what ubsettels me i cant avoid those toughts not even with all the the medication i take