u/winter_days789

I realized this didnt log me in so here we go again.

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Is anyone less like this?

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I have AuDHD, MDD, GAD, etc. I was wondering is it normal as an AuDHD mom to stay up late even knowing you'll be tired in the morning?

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I cant work. So that's not the thing. But my kids are 1st shifters for sure. They have audhd. All 4 of them.

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My husband hates it. But like, I hate summer. Its too hot. Then there's the uv rays. Anyone get in so called trouble over this. Im analyzing my words so no one else assumes im saying something Im not.

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My husband is adhd only, not autistic, so this drives him nuts. I try to sleep on time but its very tempting to have the alone time especially in the summer. Im an introvert as well.

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Thoughts. Please dont be harsh. I am sensitive to criticism.

I feel that I have barely anyone to understand me.

It's been 4 years this November since I went to a eating disorder unit.

My weight stopped going up. Stable ish. But weight fluctuates for everyone daily.

For me though, I struggle. I struggle with my looks. If I wear something comfortable I look worse than if I wear something not comfortable. Im autistic BTW. So yeah.

I just wonder like when are my insides healed.

My mind thinks of different things when I go to eat. Things I used to think of. My family of origin, not all but still, they believe in restrict equals weight loss. Yeah but it just gains back because it was starved.

Im not starving like I used to do. My intake is limited. What I eat that is.

From looks, people would think I sit at a buffet all day daily. But I don't. Pita and hummus are my go to. Something I know I'll eat. Big sigh. 4 years ago this month, I looked very different. I'll add I have been to 1 eating disorder unit and 2 psych units since then. Along with therapy and meds. Good thing is that I have an amazing therapist now. And a I've had my psych for couple years. The meds. are working. I just dont feel comfortable in my own skin. Anyone have this experience?

Ive been about this weight for about 3 years now. Ive never been this even when I was pregnant with my kids.