How do I explain to my Mom the difference between Gender Dysphoria and Sexuality like being Gay?
So I came out recently being Trans (I'm 20).
Of how I came out to my Mom, she caught wind of my Appointment to a Psychiatrist on 5th June and asked me. Also how I found out, it was a long progressive journey in an internal war struggling to get a grip of myself but in the end it was me just denying that I am Trans due to my Family, my Faith (Christianity, Protestant Christian) and the fear of losing the people I love because of coming out.
Last year I was severely depressed the whole year, I became some sort of Hikimori that I isolated myself in my room. The reason why it got that bad is due to fighting the part of me being Trans for several years. One day I tried to attempt to end it all because I felt pressured to choose between being myself and my family and the faith. I love all 3 so it was hard to pick.. So Naturally, my thought process was to end it all so I do not trouble my family with my issue.. Well in the end, Family saved me and this year I am determined to embrace the part of me that I always denied.. Still depressed but not as severe as before.
How I came to how I truly started to embrace myself through self-reflections and talks with my friends that I can deeply talk around this and be open about it. I reflected of how I started to feel wrong being myself and whenever I dressed up, it just felt.. Right. It's not where dressing up as a girl kind of fetish but it's the kind where it felt right. I felt happy. Then I asked my friends "Do you ever dream of being a girl? Like when I was 13, I dreamt of a life being a girl every single day till now" I thought it was normal to dream being a girl till they said "No?? I'm quite okay with being a guy but never dreamt of being a girl". It was quite shocking for me because I thought those thoughts were normal.
Then for 2 years now, I felt uncomfortable and would hesitate going to the public Restroom. Is that strange? I do have to eventually go because I need to relieve myself so I'd often shut my brain off and just go in without looking anyone in the eye. I became conscious about my body, my voice and how people addressed me. I hated all of it. When people call me handsome, I dislike it. Is that weird? Also one day my Mom said I look pretty and look like a girl when I had long hair, I was really happy that day even when she was unaware of it. It just felt right being called pretty.
This is how I found out I have a Severe Case of Gender Dysphoria. So when I came out to my Mom, she said she understood Gender Dysphoria and then referred me to one of her 'Gender Dysphoria' patients in the hospital she worked in. You know who this Patient is? He is just Gay.. So I told my Mom one more time if she understands, she says she does but I explained to her Gender Dysphoria isn't about Sexuality or being Gay. Eventually I also told my Dad but he is the same as my Mom. He said he had a 'Gender Dysphoria' Uncle who acts 'Gay' whenever he is Drunk 😭.
So I came to understand that my parents are just from a different generation that wasn't open to all of this. But my Parents are willing to understand me and accept that I'm.. This. So I told my Dad I'll explain it to my Mom first so she can explain it to my Dad the difference between Gender Dysphoria and Sexuality. She's a Nurse too so she is willing to learn and understand. I tried texting her over the difference but she couldn't process it all because time and time I asked her if she understood what I sent her and she said no. Is there some kind of Link for an explanation? Or an easier way to explain it to her?