u/wtfbenlol

10 years together, 6 of that married. I've spent the last year as the only person working in a house of 6 including MiL and BiL even taking up a second gig doordashing to make ends meet. Wife told me last night that she's had enough after we came up short in the power bill this month, due today, despite working 80 hours weeks most days till midnight.

I just sobbed hugging my boys goodbye in the Walmart parking lot, 4 and 9. We survived her infidelity 5vyears ago but end the end money issues are what did it in.

The boys don't understand.

I'm tired of begging, tired of crying. Tired of working till midnight most nights just to come home to a cold shoulder for whatever reason.

My sister and brother in law are picking me up and taking me a city over to my parents.

I don't know what's next. She said she'd never keep the boys from me, but somehow I don't believe it. I guess we'll see when I go to pick them up Sunday for the day.

I hurt guys, I've never felt this much hurt in my 40 years

I'm currently writing this from behind a staples dumpster, in the rain and wind from tropical depression Arthur, that I've managed to find respite in.

I took powdered kratom for many years, used it to kick fent over 5 years ago. January before last, I found 7tabz brand 15mg 7oh. I took one and it forever changed the course of my life. 15mg a day has turned into a 400mg, $28 dollar a day habit. Might not seem expensive but in the last 6 months my wife l, who also takes 7oh, was laid off. The owners if our house decided to stop renting to us in favor of selling, so we lost out home and moved in with her verbally and mentally abusive mother with our 2 sons.

Soon after said MiL quit her job over a perceived slight rendering myself the only worker in a house if 6 people. That was a year ago now. MiL has been fired from 3 subsequent jobs none of which lasted more than a week and my wife hasn't found work yet

The stress of all of this increased my usage slowly, frog in pot style. i make decent money with my day job but also took up door dashing to make ends easier to meet. The stress, however, of being the only one working made it easy to take more - and I did for the last 2.5ish months where my habit went from 60-90 milligrams to about 400mg a day (thanks to limitless being so cheap).

2 weeks ago, I sent my wife the money to pay rent but at some point cashapp deemed her account to be fraudulent and closed it, taking the money that was in it and applying it to her borrowed balance essentially wiping out the rent money and setting us back quite a bit. She knew I took 7ou but I hid my increased usage. This event lead me to today, the day a $250 power bill was due and between dashing and my job I wasn't able to earn enough money to pay the bill, this is how much wife found out I spend about $28 dollars a day on it l.

Told me she wants a divorce and kicked me out while our boys were asleep. I'm literally in a cardboard hovel behind a staples dumpster in the rain and wind, a few hours from withdrawal. All over $28 a day.

Don't be like me, stay away from 7oh. I'm cold, wet, and have no idea when I'm gonna see my boys or eat again.

Didn't expect to hear that here, good for them.