u/xo_pearl_princessxox

I am 21 and trying to find a job asap, I won't lie, I'm feeling hopeless because I know the lack of any qualifications don't help & I see people of all different circumstances struggling to find work ATM.

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I am still going to continue job searching but does anyone here believe/know if there is actually any job here for me?

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I'm not rly fussy either at all,

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I do not have a car either so that's another blockage with some jobs.

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What are ways I can find a job here fast? I do use indeed and look online.

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I'm even thinking of sometimes asking say cafe's, shops etc if they would be able to hire me or need any help etc.

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I'm just so anxious right now guys :(

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I am tired of having little money and sometimes having to just endure struggle, it breaks my heart that I'm even in this situation while also going through personal things but I AM trying to get myself out of it - I am going to get my GCSE's etc done later in the year- I just need and want a job asap and I plan to stay at the job for years.

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Thank you to anyone who comments and offers any advice at all ❤️

Edit

I have been a carer , for an adult with complex needs, so I do have some personal experience within that but I'm having no luck when applying to those jobs.

But being a carer learnt me responsibility, time management, etc etc,

Most people here have experienced the things I've experienced from my older siblings from their parents, did anyone else experienced it with siblings?

Basically mine can get very critical of me and it is draining.

One of them gets mad at me because I don't react super smiley and sometimes get a bit frustrated at her when she goes on her rants where it feels like she's just picking at things when it's not necessary and I don't do it to her, it can become quite frequent and so does my other sibling when she gets comfortable with me.

Just today she did it and I tried to basically.. "grey rock"? Her, like I just ahut down and don't rly respond, but I got a bit irritated because there was no need, she claims I'm over dramatic and went on a rant about that even tho I wasn't even being dramatic earlier like I'm just being myself but get critisied.

Then she got mad at me because I got a bit frustrated (wasn't rude just facially I looked a bit irritated)

I feel so much dread because of it all especially during hard stressful life situations having to deal with this too.

Anyway she kept telling me to stop being mad, asking me why I'm mad, telling me to stop being weird (as in acting a bit mad and avoiding her)

Then she told me she's not talking to me anymore and that she's not going to try to "help" me anymore

At this point I don't even care It's just frustrating that I'm painted the bad guy when really I am being picked on I feel, if I saw any other people doing this to younger siblings I'd say something and feel like they're bullying the young sibling, it helps me to imagine I'm witnessing this behaviour because they make me feel like I'm the problem.

It's just so draining,I have my flaws but there are times ahe basically makes assumptions but she is so strong in her opinions and if I do speak up she will claim I'm arguing or being defensive .

I spoke to her best friend and she experiences the same from her so it made me realise I'm not the whole problem, sure at times I was wrong in life but so could she be.and sometimes she is just too critical or doesn't hear me out.

I've noticed allll of my older siblings can have these patterns, I think it's because I am younger than them but also maybe it isn't personal which it's hard for me to not take it personal, maybe they're just like this in general (I kind of witnessed that)

I am feeling super bad about a small lie I recently did with my work coach, it wasn't something major, I did it to avoid having to spend time explaining why I didn't do something that I was supposed to have already done -

My reason for not getting said thing done was because I was SO busy at home + had to stay overnight at families because of a serious accident -

I had a LOT on my plate I feel and it caused me to avoid getting a certain thing done , and now that has caused more delays .

I feel super bad, but I didn't do it for weird or evil reasons, I just didn't want to possibly be judged/looked down on as if I wasn't trying when really I was just too busy to focus on a certain thing.

I have to also add on one more little lie to resolve this situation and I just feel super bad 😭

I have never lied about anything to my work coach, or to anyone really. I wanted to tell her and explain the truth but that'd make me look bad and like I'm just an overall liar lmao.

Is this a big deal???? I am very .. moral? So I feel so terrible if I lie, although if she (my female work coach) actually knew me and my reason they probably wouldn't care lmao , I just wanted to avoid getting a possible sanction, or being told off when I already beat myself up for not getting a task done but it wasn't due to pure carelessness.