I feel like all the psychologists I have dealt with haven't got me anywhere
For about 6 years I have been seeing various psychologists on and off through the respiratory clinic at my local hospital. It started shortly after my dad died during COVID, but that wasn't the sole focus or only reason for going and many things have been explored in that time. Over the years I've seen four different psychologists and to be honest it's been a really frustrating experience.
The first two were technically intern psychologists so the depth of knowledge or how much we managed to unpack never really got to where I thought it would be. And because they were temporary positions there was no time to build rapport. The third was a full fledged psychologists but she too didn't stay in the role long either. The lady I'm currently seeing is the first one that is intended to be a full time, long term fixture and I thought now I might start seeing some real benefit. But it all just still feels like the same genetic advice and observations I was getting before. Things that I could point out and conclusions I already know. It never feels like breaking significant ground.
I feel like despite all the time I've spent going in person or doing phone calls, 6 years later I don't feel like I've made significant progress in my life. There's elements of my life that are better and periods of major anxiety that I've worked through. But a lot of that I would credit to myself and steps that I took independent of them. I'm still lacking motivation, I'm still feeling directionless, I still have anger and impulsiveness in me, I still have traits and habits and tendencies in me that I haven't addressed. Not to mention I have strong suspicions of neuro divergence that I've been wanting to get to the bottom of for years now but the psychologists through this service, even my current one, can't even test for anything as it's not their expertise. I filled out an ADHD screening for previously with my prior psychologist and I met the requirement for further testing but she wasn't convinced and it never got anywhere.
Are all psychologists this basic? I could just spend my time googling my problems and not have to worry about dealing with this if I'm just going to get psych 101 advice. What should I do? At the moment the only benefit I get is the ability to unload free of judgement but I need more I feel