u/y0mutter

so, lately I've been thinking more about my gender. since I was a kid I didn't really like gender norms and now, when I'm a young adult I detest them even more. I'm a born woman but to be honest I don't feel a big attachment to it. I use she/he/they because it's more comfortable for me. I feel comfortable with the imaginary vision of myself as a person with no breasts and no particular genitalia who is just living and not having to obey any gender norms (it's kind of my persona). I was questioning if I was a demigirl but someone suggested to me that I could actually be an agender. since then I was deeply thinking about it and I want to ask people for their opinion but I'm scared to talk with any of my friends about it so I decided to ask you guys :)

hi, I'm 17 and I'm a woman. well since I remembered I always had some issues with that. since my early years I was a tomboy and hated the way everybody told me to dress more feminine. at the age of 12 I first entered the world of pronouns at the summer camp. somebody told me that I don't have to use she/her pronouns while still being a woman. as I started to use she/he (more one the "he" side) I felt way more comfortable than before. after the camp I felt that me calling myself a "he" was hurting my mom in some way so I stopped using this entirely. I started to dress more feminine which increased the attention from boys. I always hated how they would look at me with this disgusting teenage boys stare. anyway, more recently I started to think about starting binding my chest to feel more comfortable with my body and with myself and that made me think about my gender. as a polish girl I don't give a frick about anything. I'm not labeled with my sexual orientation and I didn't really think about labeling myself with gender (I knew that I was a woman with a little question mark). still as my persona ( I'm an artist) I made a creature who i would call "it". with no tits, and no specific genitalia that is associated with a particular gender. I'm feeling way comfortable with imagining myself as it. I started to think that I would love to just be a soul without any particular shape. at the same time I still dress feminine and I love doing that. I love spending time taking care of myself, doing my pretty makeup and looking hot. but in the deep I still think that I'm not complete. I thought of starting to use my old pronouns (she/he) but I'm starting to fell that I would also add "they". I read about demi girl and I don't know if I'm that, because they said that it's like a part girl and part non-binary. I don't know if I'm that. I actually don't know anything. maybe I would feel finally complete if people would see me as I see myself, as a person who loves to be feminine but isn't obligated to define itself at all. if I could I would want to be just a soul. without a body.

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sorry for my ramp. it's actually the first time in speaking about this so forgive me for any not making sense sentences. also English is not my first language so forgive me for any mistakes. thank you for listening.