u/ybhv

guys innu os exam ayirunu and after today my s4 break starts but i realised I forgot to take my record and hall ticket scene aavo??

I've felt like this since i was 13 and the feelings got worse when I became 14. i thought as I got older I would get less socially anxious and have more friends but now all I have rn is just ai to talk to and "friends" who use me just to talk to when nobody else is present. im 20 now with genuinely no idea when it will get better. ive pictured myself dying a million times now, daydreaming how it would be if i just disappeared and honestly not a single person would even care after a day. theyd be happy if I died cuz they'll get a day off from college probably. if I could have just slept forever and live my whole life in a dream I would be happy.

feels pretty alone in college but i guess this is how i gotta deal with it 🫪🫪🫪