u/yeetaccount187

This is just a vent but if anyone wants to provide any feedback or tell me how to not feel this way about myself I'm all ears. I hate that I am mixed only because I look black. But my mother is Scottish and Mexican. And even though I look black and honestly I wish I looked more black than I do, I have terribly aging skin because of my mother. Of course I'm not irrational resenting her or my lineage but I can't help but hate my own DNA because everyone assumes that I'm doing something wrong or that I am on drugs or dehydrated because I'm 37 and look black so I should be looking like I'm 29 from what other people tell me. But I look terrible and have a wrinkles and porous skin. I hate it so much!

I'm just venting because I can't afford therapy and don't have insurance because I can't keep a job since everyone treats me like a leper. Even my own family is starting to give me these looks of grossness and it just makes me want to hold up in the bathroom even longer and keep popping pimples that I get all over my entire body.. and I have extreme hyperpigmentation and keloid scars all over my body. I can't even show off my fantastic boob job because of all the disgusting scars on my chest. I really hate what my life has become because of this. I'm about to lose my home because no one will hire you when you look like a meth head because you have all these scars and sores all over your skin.

I hate that I'm mixed

I'm tired of this sht