14th of August was meant to mean something completely different
Dear AW
We could have been together for 7 years. I was meant to ask you the big question, kneeling down. My grandparents even offered to buy me the ring back in December, and I thanked them and asked if we could wait until March, not knowing you would have that doctor’s appointment in February and never return or speak to me ever again.
The silly thing was, I thought you had something really wrong or had got pregnant and were scared to tell me, which made me spiral even more and react in a hostile and horrible manner.
You leaving was the final drip, and my mental health collapsed, resulting in psychosis. So I raised the white flag, admitted defeat, and went to seek professional help, even as stubborn as a mule as I am.
It only took losing you, losing myself, getting into psychosis and debt. There I was, me and myself, staring in the mirror, but no one looking back.
I know you were begging me to go sooner, but I rather fed my delusions of being ''fine'' and everyone is an enemy trying to get me down.
But that man is gone, thank fuck for that no should have put up with that silly sausage.
I blocked you on everything and anyone you know, so we can't tear up wounds and hurt each other more.
Please cherish the memories we shared it wasn't always bad, we went to cat caffs, holidays and Pubs and laughed.
I have forgiven you and myself, we can't live with hate haunting our head.
As I said, you have reserved space in my heart. Hope your life is going well, got the raise and shorter train journeys. Laugh a lot and surrounded by love.
Can't believe I'm writing on Reddit I used to point the finger and laugh. To conclude my letter all I got to say is Stinky.
IK