Wanting to socially detransition, but remain on estrogen
What the title says. To put it lightly... Transitioning has not been the journey of self-discovery that I hoped it would be. I just don't care about things like makeup or feminine clothing or anything like that. I prefer my body to be feminine, preferably female, but being female isn't possible, so I'd prefer to have a feminine body as a man. I prefer to be called feminine terms, but at my core I am male. It's sort of like those anime characters being called she/her and they're like "actually, i'm a boy". Still "transfeminine", just... a guy as my fundamental gender.
Idk exactly what I'm asking here... I guess for support? Community? I was pointed here when asking about detransitioning in the MtF subreddit. Your own stories would be greatly appreciated :3