Some thoughts on medication
These are my personal experience and of course it would be different for everyone.
- Fluoxetine - happy pill stops you from freaking out and bounce around in your thoughts
- Wellbutrin - cuts down on the noise. I literally am thinking about less things on it
- Ritalin - keeps you focused - as long as you are on track it will help you stay there and not get derailed
- Coffee/Tea - very short and intense burst of energy and focus - won't last long but can be topped up
Before I continue - don't self medicate - discuss with your psychiatrist and come up with a plan my goal is to help you understand what is happening.
Now the bad thing - none of them are magic pill and not all of them are needed. Figure out what is the minimum you need to be productive without loosing the person you are inside.
Ok so now the details-
Fluoxetine effect is hard to realize - you will notice over time you are calming down and being able to focus even when everything tells you you should freak out and have a meltdown. You have to be careful in my line of work there are situations when you have to manage chaos - it is alright to freak out internally as long as that keeps you on your toes and gets you results. Too much and you will let the house burn down and not care about it.
Wellbutrin - noise goes down and you have less things to focus on. I feel it is awesome when you have to do one thing at a time - maybe you are in a new job or you are starting your career. You have less things to get distracted and you do your tasks well. It definitely wasn't for me - my job requires me to be able to handle situations when things are not working well including multiple issues going on in parallel. ADHD really shines here - I am able to track multiple things and keep them from falling apart. When I was on Wellbutrin and Fluoxetine together I was so chill that I could have got fired.