Not to invalidate or downplay the oppression gay/bi people face, I know I have privileges for being het (when presenting GC anyway) but I'm very jealous of the same-sex dynamic and feeling heteropessimistic sometimes. And I wonder if anyone feels the same way as me?
I mean like in straight relationship there's this clear gender divide, always a man and a woman, while gay couples just don't have one, so they just have a freer range of dynamics without genders getting in the way, if that makes sense. When I hear about how yaoi and BL help straight women escape gender roles and all, I can't help but to feel kinda sad? Like being the same gender is just more poetic in a way that is just not possible in het relationships.
I know it sounds like I romanticise same-sex relationships too much, which is probably true, it's just that for the love of god, I hate the straight culture so much. I hate it with my gut. I hate how boring and bland and conforming it is. The gay culture have labels and dynamics and all that stuff whereas straight culture just stucks there just to uphold the status quo and oppress others, straight people don't even like each others! Being associated with straightness makes me feel suffocated sometimes. And the fact that nobody really talks about this makes me hesitant to say anything. Honestly, I want heterosexuality to be free and liberating too, but no, I guess this is the permanent state of heterosexuality.
Sorry if this is too chronically online but I just want to get it out my chest somehow.
It can be absolutely anything no matter how "strange" it may be, I want to hear it all!