r/countbackwardswithme

Goes for racists,sexists,ableists,bigots of all kinds too.

pray for those who will not pray for you - jesus or someone

hi everyone, it's me the owner and creator of the sub.

basically really long story short a few months ago someone pretty popular on reddit said some (transphobic) things to and about me that upset me. most notably "it's utterly amusing how you call yourself trans..." and "saying you are trans and [belief that i hold] is like saying you are a vegan and eating meat". i told them my identity was a very sensitive subject and i requested an apology that i never received.

i called them out and their followers harassed and stalked me, they called me slurs and told me to off myself and a bit more stuff whatever.

i tried to make what happened to me more public in order to show the poor character of the person, to be open about what happened to me. and the vast majority of people took her side.

after a little bit, me and her talked in private, without me getting a real apology, the subject eventually changed away from the discourse and we had a friendly conversation that was completely unrelated, but truly i didn't feel like it was "settled". she then took screenshots of this private conversation and tried to tell people that me and her were now besties and we worked it out, because i was joking around being nice. this upset me a lot.

after i pretty much said 'that's not what happened and we are not settled', she and all of her friends started claiming that i was lying about the whole situation. they started saying that i was making up the harassment from the start. they said that i was going on a smear campaign to ruin her image. and i just became obsessed with trying to show that i wasn't lying, so i made a response to a post saying i was lying with proof of the things said to me, and not only was my post removed by the mods of the subreddit where all of the drama was happening (the mods are her friends), she linked the post and said "this person is seriously mentally unwell, this post has nothing to even do with [subject that this discourse was happening about], it's just their personal drama". again it was literally just a response to another post that was made on that same subreddit by one of her friends.

eventually i gave up and have been trying to move on, but this situation genuinely effected me a lot. i muted the servers where she is most active, and tried to just stay away from everything involving her or her group of friends that are all quite popular in that debate space.

but recently some posts have been made about her and i've just been thinking about it a lot again. posts about things her friends have done like doxing someone i guess and some other stuff it's not important. anyways the main point is that i've been on a crazy emotional rollercoaster these past few days and i'm sorry that i haven't been moderating much or posting at all, before i was posting like 5-10 times a day and commenting all the time.

sorry again, i am back now and should be active again <3