r/druidism

Wondering if I can be a druid and still a hellenist (polytheistic)?

Let's get in sync with what's going on outside. What's blooming—or down for the season? What birds are active? Do you have any gardening going? Let's chat about it!

I've been agnostic since I was old enough to understand what that was, probably 25 years now, always fascinated by all kinds of mythology in theory and for the stories but without ever feeling any kind of personal connection. At times I have been envious of people who do and tried to have a feel around to see if anything clicked but nothing ever did and when I discovered Druidry earlier this year I felt and still feel great peace and relief at finally at the age of 40 having found what feels like my true spiritual home.

I have been following the OBOD course and doing some wider reading in the course of which I have discovered Ceridwen, whose story resonates with me in a way that no other myth ever has. It's Ceridwen as mature woman, as artist who tries to create something, fails, is angry at her failure and acts poorly, only to recognise that even in her failure she has accidentally created something which deserves to exist and sends it out into the world to do what it will. I also feel a strong connection to the Moon in that any time I see it I feel great emotion and just want to stare and stare at it, but I never know what to do beyond that.

Intuition tells me there is something for me to explore here, but I don't know how. The idea of worship in itself doesn't sit right with me and even if it did in theory, it doesn't feel like it would fit in this context? I don't want to ask her for anything, just kind of acknowledge a connection somehow? But then I also know that due to various factors I am instinctively prone to assuming people in authority aren't interested in or likely to care about me or want to help me so I resent having to ask them for anything, which is likely the root of my aversion to worship, so maybe I ought to work on that instead? Or something else? Any thoughts gratefully received!

Has anyone here had any luck getting in contact with RDNA? I did the RDG ordination stuff but want to have a grove connected to RDNA but never hear back from them so I was wondering if anyone has had any luck with them.