Does it even work?
We all know Buddhists (especially those trying to gain converts) love to talk about their religion as a "tool" to reduce suffering, and become enlightened. The Buddha is supposed to be a sort of universal doctor providing all ✨️sentient beings✨️ with the wonderful cure of his teachings, but they don't really seem to do that much.
With how effective his teachings are supposed to be, you'd expect the world to be full of floating 10th bhumi bodhisattvas, and other enlightened beings. In reality, very few Buddhists would be willing to point at any living person and say "yeah, that guy is enlightened". Even less of them seem to be deriving much actual benefit and peace from their practice, which seems to lead to sectarian infighting and becoming enmeshed in feudal asian politics much more often than to the simple peace they were promised.
My question is, did your practice actually provide you any comfort or other advertised promises, or was it a net miserable experience?