u/No-Table1195

I exercise and stretch everyday and while that's great and I have seriously unlocked mobility that I am grateful for, there are still some obstacles I haven't been able overcome because I've kinda been brute forcing everything and hoping it just works, but now I'm exhausted mentally from this and I want to understand what actually goes on underneath and develop an intuition for how to resolve my issues. I already know some basic stuff like muscle protagonists and antagonists but that doesn't suffice.

I just want a resource that describes the grammar and syntax of the language. I want it to list out things like particles, prepositions, the functional morphemes and clause types. Something like this

https://perseids-publications.github.io/harrington-trees/docs/harrington-greek-grammar-2016.pdf

I don't care to read Farsi study textbooks. I just want the grammar.

This is kind of a silly post but my life is honestly dogshit. I suffer from both chronic health issues and a behavioral addiction. I don't want to feel like shit for at least a day so maybe I can build up the necessary conviction or confidence to at least quit my addiction and feel less shitty. I've taken both L-Dopa and 5-HTP before and they didn't do shit. Only tea or coffee help me feel less shit or in a better mental state maybe.

I enjoy reading and analyzing Shakespeare's sonnets and have many memorized by heart and the number keeps increasing, but I want to memorize and grasp Arabic poems so I can enrich both my scant Arabic vocabulary and translation. Someone gifted me Ahmed Shawqi's "al-Shawqīyat" and I was disappointed to find that there were neither explanations for the poems nor rhetorical analyses. The only things that were close to an explanation within the pages of the book were the meanings of the words. I went to my local bookstore and scanned a few books of poetry hoping to find something more elaborate but unfortunately they all shared the same format of the book I was gifted. There are things that need no explanation when analyzing poems, such as rhetorical devices that can be clear as day. I often see cases of polyptoton and cognate accusatives in Arabic poetry, which isn't surprising given Arabic's morphology. For example:

في حَدِّهِ الحَدُّ بَينَ الجِدِّ وَاللَعِبِ

Other rhetorical devices I've noticed in Arabic poems are anaphora, chiasmus, and anadiplosis.

I want a resource or book that explains the ideas within the poems, how they transition, maybe even the rhetorical devices used so I can learn the terms in Arabic.

I'm grateful for all the mobility I've been able to achieve, especially when it comes to my lower back and hamstrings, but there's still one more obstacle that I haven't been able to resolve for months, and that is my stubborn piriformis. I generally never feel any pain throughout daily life but when I go into certain positions I definitely feel like my piriformis is hindering my potential. For example, when I lay down on my back and lift my bottom with my hands while I send my legs backward as if they're trying to be parallel with my upper body, I feel my piriformis flare up or tingle. It tingles even more when I try to straighten my knees.

I'm trying to say "I hope that what you drink is good". I'm sure that my usage of the complementizer οτι is correct but I'm not sure about ο, which I assume is a free relative without an antecedent so it should be "what". Maybe it's grammatical but not natural?

I'll keep it short because I'm going to bed. Basically, five years ago I saw something rather lewd that instantly made my self sink. I don't know how to describe the feeling that happend. I don't even know how it happened. It's like something overcame me or awakened inside me (Not the good kind) and after that moment I've had a chronic and persistent form of depression. I'll describe what I have felt since that moment up until know.

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- More irritable and sense-starved. Before the event, whenever I was hungry, even really hungry, I was never irritable or angry, but now I can't even perform an 8 hour fast. I was always serene at all times before the event and never felt any mental itches, it was amazing. This starvation applies to other things like I can't even sit down with myself for 5 minutes without wanting to do something that provides instant gratification or pleasure but before I could easily sit for an hour doing nothing and it didn't itch me. I also feel touch-starved like I want to hug someone or be sensous with them, this never happened before and I was totally content.

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- Depression

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- Lack of motivation

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- Acute stress upon flashback that subsists after a brief moment

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I don't even know how to resolve this issue. It fucking sucks. It's been five years. When the feeling overcame me I thought it would subside the next day after I slept or in a week max, but no, it's still with me and it hasn't even alleviated for a second. I tried analyzing the event and doing some introspection and sometimes meditation but nothing has worked so far. I can't believe this has happened to me.

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Now before anybody gets upset with me asking this question, I know that in the end quitting an addiction is all on you and there's no substance you can take that'll rewire your brain, but I'm wondering if it has been the experience of some where a nootropic helped you during the pangs of addiction or improved your mental state or mood to the point where you realized that you can feel like this as your baseline if you just quit. I need confidence to quit my addiction, and I'm looking to be imbued with confidence through a nootropic.

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I've taken 5-HTP, L-Dopa, L-Theanine, and L-Tyrosine. None of them have done anything for me over a span of weeks . I'm thinking of purchasing Ashwaganda. Is there anything else I should consider? What was your experience?

Everyone who has ever lived and who live now, they have past karma? You can trace it back further and further? Can new beings come without past karma just like that?

I'll keep it short and paratactic as possible, in part because I'm never in the head space to ever give much detail. I suffer from a behavioral addiction. I have a very abnormal health issue that makes me doubt finally quitting and never looking back. I tell myself "Once I finally resolve my health issue, I will embark on quitting this addiction once and for all." Every time I'm on an abstinence streak I doubt that I have a real conviction to quit because I have this idea in my head that the only thing that'll convince me to quit is to resolve my health issue, anything other than that doesn't convince me enough. This conviction that I have to finally quit after I resolve my health issue is at the root of this agonizing constant cycle of abstinence followed by relapse spearheaded by doubt. I want to break free.

I'll keep it short and paratactic as possible, in part because I'm never in the head space to ever give much detail. I suffer from a behavioral addiction. I have a very abnormal health issue that makes me doubt finally quitting and never looking back. I tell myself "Once I finally resolve my health issue, I will embark on quitting this addiction once and for all." Every time I'm on an abstinence streak I doubt that I have a real conviction to quit because I have this idea in my head that the only thing that'll convince me to quit is to resolve my health issue, anything other than that doesn't convince me enough. This conviction that I have to finally quit after I resolve my health issue is at the root of this agonizing constant cycle of abstinence followed by relapse spearheaded by doubt. I want to break free

I don't want to spend my time on meditative sessions where I'm only returning my focus back on the breath every time a thought captivates me. This type of meditation is too passive for me because there's no contemplation invovled. Many sing the praises of this kind of meditation because among the benefits of it is making one calmer in every waking moment. I don't care for calm at all. I know it makes you calmer because it's like a slow lobotomizing process where every time a thought occurs and manages to push itself to your mental periphery, you just have to focus on the breath again. I find more insight and value writing my thoughts and trying to backtrack why I think this way and how I can change. Heck, I find Epictetus's "Can I change this?" of more help to me. Even reciting poems I've memorized in my head feels more beneficial. I want to establish a spiritual practice and I'm wondering what kind of rituals or practices people on here have.

I don't want to spend my time on meditative sessions where I'm only returning my focus back on the breath every time a thought captivates me. This type of meditation is too passive for me because there's no contemplation invovled. Many sing the praises of this kind of meditation because among the benefits of it is making one calmer in every waking moment. I don't care for calm at all. I know it makes you calmer because it's like a slow lobotomizing process where every time a thought occurs and manages to push itself to your mental periphery, you just have to focus on the breath again. I find more insight and value writing my thoughts and trying to backtrack why I think this way and how I can change. Heck, I find Epictetus's "Can I change this?" of more help to me. Even reciting poems I've memorized in my head feels more beneficial. I want to establish a spiritual practice and I'm wondering what kind of rituals or practices people on here have.