r/hivsupportindia

i received blowjob from a female sex worker, i saw her teeth were bad, although i think there was no blood, she was also iv drug user, the incident happened 34 hours ago, i got her tested and she came out negative on a rapid test for HIV but she is positive for HCV, should i start pep or not ?? i am getting anxiety about the window period of the rapid test

Been on ART for a month now. Sharing life update

1. Shifted my night schedule to morning schedule. It give me a free hand in night to be out and not always have to reach for medicine fixed time in night while being out with friends / family or at a party

2. Working out 4 time a week - is really helping

3. Slowly it’s being a part of life , feeling normal

4. Still scared side effects of medicine on kidneys causing a kidney issues

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I have been put on ART, have been taking it from the ART centre, after digging deep, i found out TAF version is much safer on kidney and stuff. So curious on that, any experts here to answer?

Recently got diagnosed with HIV and I’m still adjusting to it. I’m a friendly guy who loves making new friends, chatting about college life, movies, music, cricket, or random stuff. Looking for genuine, open-minded people for normal friendships. If you’re cool and non-judgmental, feel free to say hi!

I am on TLD regime for a month
Do you think I could continue my whey supplements and creatine along side .
What are the things to take care of along side

had hookup over this morning and now i’m spiraling a bit. there was no penetrative sex, but he spat on/around my asshole during stuff. later i noticed there was a little blood in his spit and now i’m panicking about hiv risk.

the thing is i had shaved that area the same morning, so now i’m worried there may have been tiny cuts/razor irritation even if i didn’t notice anything major at the time.

i don’t know his status and i’ve been doomscrolling/google searching ever since. no semen or anal sex happened, just the spit situation, but the blood part is what’s freaking me out.

is this still considered low risk? should i try to get pep just in case? would really appreciate hearing from anyone who’s dealt with something similar because my anxiety is through the roof rn.

Is there someone here who’s been taking meds for more 5-10 years.
Want to know how quality of life has been for you?

Hey i am from india. I am transgender. I tested hiv positive 5 months ago and i got tuberculosis but now i am fit and fine. I have my cd4 test next month and i am hoping some good news anyway i am here coz i want to date some guy, i know it's very difficult to find a partner but i can't giveup. So anyone here interested in me feel free to ping me

Thanks 😊

Hi everyone. I don’t really know why I’m making this post, but I feel like I can’t handle all of this alone anymore. I want to share my story from the beginning.

I’m a 23-year-old gay man from India.

Since childhood, I’ve had many health problems. I have asthma, dust and pollen allergies, eye allergies, and a few other issues. I used to get sick very often and was even hospitalized twice when I was younger. Because of all this, my parents have always been very protective about my health. Even now, if I run a little or lift something heavy, I get short of breath. During winter, I often get asthma attacks, and my eye allergies cause a lot of problems too. I’ve been dealing with these health issues since I was around 4 years old.

Because of this, I was never really able to make friends. In school, I had a few classmates I talked to until around 8th grade, but after that, I became completely alone. I never had real friends.

As I grew older, I realized that I was attracted to boys. At the same time, I was extremely skinny (I still am), and because of that my voice sounded feminine and still does. From class 9 to 12, people made fun of me constantly—both for how skinny I was and for how my voice sounded. Some classmates would even measure my forearms and biceps just to laugh at how thin I was. They were also very homophobic.

Those years destroyed my confidence.

In class 10, I became very angry and emotionally unstable, probably because of everything I was experiencing. I even had a big fight with my siblings, and since then, we haven’t really spoken . We still live in the same house, but we don’t talk. They go out together, spend time together, enjoy life—and I’m always alone.

I stopped trying to make friends. I had been alone for so many years that I got used to it. Even in college, I used to sit alone. It hurt to see other people with their friends, because I wanted that too—but I was too afraid. I thought if I tried to get close to people, they would make fun of my skinny body again. And if they found out I was gay, it would be even worse. So I never tried.

In 2023, I discovered gay apps. I thought maybe I could finally make friends there, because everyone there would be gay or bi and I wouldn’t have to hide who I am. But I was wrong. Nobody seemed interested in friendship—everyone only wanted sex.

I had sex for the first time in January 2023, and honestly, it felt good. After that, I met more people—sometimes just to talk, sometimes for hookups. I thought maybe even if I couldn’t find real friends, at least I could have a few people to talk to.

Things felt okay for a while.

Then in 2025, I moved to another city for some work. I thought maybe a new city would mean a fresh start. Maybe I could meet new people and finally make some friends.

But again, I was wrong.

There too, most people only wanted sex. I met some guys through Grindr, and I had unprotected sex with a few of them. I asked if they were safe. They all said yes. I trusted them.

That was the biggest mistake of my life.

Now I’ve tested positive for HIV.

I’ve started ART, and I know treatment works, but mentally I feel broken.

When I found out I was HIV positive, I couldn’t sleep for two days. I barely slept at all. I completely lost my appetite, and honestly, that is still happening. My mind feels constantly heavy.

After testing positive, I had to go to the ART center alone. For three days, I stood in lines for hours, gave blood samples, did more tests, and went through counseling—all by myself. It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done.

I had no one with me. No one I could talk to. No one I could tell.

During counseling, the doctors asked me many personal questions, and I felt extremely ashamed and uncomfortable answering them. But somehow, I answered everything.

They told me I should tell at least one family member, because I’m already physically unhealthy, and if my health gets worse in the future, I may need someone to help me or take me to the hospital.

But I feel too scared to tell anyone.

My whole life, I dreamed of having just one real friend—someone I wouldn’t have to hide my sexuality from. I dreamed of having a boyfriend who would truly love me. I dreamed of moving abroad someday and building a better life for myself.

I still want those things.

But now everything feels impossible.

I feel like no one will want to be my friend or my boyfriend anymore because I’m HIV positive.

No one in my family knows. I don’t have close friends. I don’t have a job. My health is already fragile, and now this feels like one more burden on top of everything else.

I keep thinking about the future and what will happen if I end up completely alone.

What if I never have a real friend?
What if I never find a boyfriend?
My parents won’t be here forever.

These thoughts scare me so much.

I honestly don’t know how to move forward.

If anyone has gone through something similar—or if anyone has advice—I would really appreciate hearing from you.

Right now, I just want to know if life can still get better from here.