r/muslimrevert

There are so many pressures that I feel from other Muslims that makes me want to go back to believing how I was before I reverted. Back story. I grew up Christian and denounced my faith in Christianity about 15 years ago due to how much religious trauma I was subjected to growing up in the Christian nationalist evangelical environment. Only to then dabble a little into Judaism because it was told to me we were part jewish on my mom’s side of the family. When I found out we in fact were not Jewish by dna testing I denounced that too because it didn’t feel right to continue practicing. Fast forward to 6 months ago I started feeling led to Islam. Three months ago I started learning deeper than the knowledge I had already acquired through learning about other religions. Two months ago I reverted and with me there is. I little. I go all in when I feel connected to something. The more I learn the more I feel like it is really restrictive. One of the things that turned me away from Christianity. The thing that drew me to Islam is monotheism. One God and only one God. Growing up praying to Jesus felt off to me. The idea of him as God in human form was off for me. So when I heard Islam presented in such a way that aligned with how I always felt that is when the feeling of being called started. With monotheism. The more I see there are so many things that are haram and so many Muslims judging other for haram things I feel pushed away. My husband is a non believer we’ve been married for almost 7 years together for almost 8. We have a 6 year old together. We have a home of love and calmness. Other Muslims shame women like me for going against Allah for remaining married. My husband is my biggest supporter in life and has given me a love people dream of with his care and support for me. Music is something that brings life to me. I’m autistic and adhd and it helps me focus, regulate my emotions, feel calm and at ease. I live in the US and birthdays and other western holidays bring me joy to observe and many scholars say don’t even decorate for the fall season because it’s pagan ritualistic nonsense. Wearing hijab feels comfortable to me. Even coming from a heavy Islamophobic state. Eating halal has helped my body become what I need it to be with having PCOS. Praying has helped me regulate my body even if I am beyond exhausted from the early mornings. Anyone else struggle? It’s not that I’m not trying to change it’s that how can the things that bring me pure joy be so haram. Sorry for the long post I just don’t know how to feel. Everyone says Islam brings ease but all I’m finding is internal conflict. I can never not believe in Allah at this point but I’m not sure if Islam is right for me.

Hi, I'm a culturally Christian (Lutheran) woman in my 30s, I have been raised in the religion but my family is not hugely religious, I went to confirmation school when I was 15 and did bible study and youth programs until I was 18. In my adulthood religion didn't really play a big part in my life, but now I'm approaching my mid-30s I've had some sort of awakening and I feel closer to God than ever - first I had this keen feeling of needing and missing something, and after realising that something was faith I'm now in an active seeking phase and my heart feels wide open. I've been to church a couple of times now and felt very peaceful.

Why am I in this sub then? I have two problems. My first issue is that I do not believe in the divinity of Jesus. I'm sure he was a very wise man touched by God, and that he was a prophet, but I do not believe he is one with God and divine. The second is that I feel equally drawn to Islam - I'm very impressed and touched about how people speak about their faith, I love the practice of wudu (I'm learning to do it and it really scratches and itch about ritualistic cleansing I didn't know I had) and I've tried on hijab, been to a mosque, prayed with the other women in there and even been in some Sufi events. Tonight I tried praying on my own for the first time and it just felt right. The thought of praying on my hands and knees on set times feels really grounding to me, a moment where I have to stop and give myself to God for a moment. I've also begun reading the Quran and listening to a podcast that explains the surah but that's slow going.

But giving up your old religion is scary, and I do feel at peace in the church too. It's just... Jesus is bit of an issue to my personal faith. I do believe we all worship the same One God and just go about it differently. I'm just not sure what my way is yet.

Has anyone been in a similar situation? Any advice?

I want to be Muslimah.

I am thinking to convert into islam.

Assalamualaikum everyone,

Nice to meet you ..

I'm 30year old independent woman , im working as a lecturer in a university.

I'm finding myself to be a part of this beautiful religion but I don't want to share (fir now) with my family.

Can I convert secretly?

And follow deen and dunya and islam secretly while living with my family?

If yes than how ? Please help me sisters 🤲🥹

Thankss

Assalamu Alaikum. I am 25F soon will be 26. I was raised Southern Baptist, then agnostic but during all that time I was growing up in a somewhat Muslim community, many of my friends practiced Islam and I learned so much from them. I’ve been researching it alot more lately and visiting my local masjid and spoken with the imam and I feel so drawn to Islam and Allah but I’m not sure if I really believe. I’ve never really believed in a higher power before but I definitely feel something in me being touched when I do my prayers. Is that enough? I’m always giving into my temptations. Can I really become Muslim if I have doubts?